Rascal Forever

RAWR !!

2011-01-18T21:06:00.001+08:00

Cool or what .... had a fight with the idiot cause he wanted to go out .. and quarrelling like some volcanic eruption in my stinky shythole ... I was like .. sarcastically .. Bring ur birds along la go out .. and he got so mad haha .. and babble whatever shyt ... say i was rude blablabla .. and he was like dont call me "ayah" call me "SIAL" .. "aku ajar kau jadi biadap .. jadi kau masuk neraka ??" What the hell LAME !! LOL ... but hey it made my day ... gosh .. he's lucky he got a dumb whatever as his wife .. i guess if it was someone else .. he die le la .. like im imagining .. the heartless RULING woman will throw all his birds out of the window when he goes out WOOHOO MAN ... and he lay down there going berserk and feel like dying LMAO !!

Worstt ..

2009-08-31T20:46:00.003+08:00

Once an egoistic bastard will always stays one ... Screw him .. Never even act his age or be an example as a father .. what the hell ? Its gonna break fast time and he's still sleeping .. doesnt even bother about anyone else .. Totally give up man.. He can rot and be invisible .. so cant be bothered ..

Mess up the house with his birds nonsense and only thinks of himself ... Might as well go move out and stay with birds to be his family..

Brainless idiot .. Fasting month is the month where everyone wake up and get their act together .. but guess he's worst than a devil .. All he thinks is himself and no one else .. why the hell do he even get married and have kids if thats how he gonna act ... Seriously ashamed to have such a father .. Like a song lyric goes ...

There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here

You're falling, you're screaming
you're stuck in the same old nightmare
He's lying, you're crying
there's nothing left to salvage
Kick the door 'cause this is over
Get me out of here

What do i do ?? sighh ..

2009-08-27T23:27:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone, been ages since i blog ... lazy i guess haha .. totally dead my blog. Have really trying to work out everything thats going on in my life .. But hey who doesnt have problems right ... just feel like pouring out here cause im human .. totally give up and lets just say been keeping mum and holding on inside me for so long and soon i will explode so yeaa ...

Its fasting season already a week of it have already past. Arrghh and the old man at home is so egoistic ... he thinks he's some kind of god. Can't even admit he did something wrong and people are always wrong and he's always right! He even said he could curse us all if he wants to .. Haha wishful thinking man. The funniest thing today is .. i bought some food home to break fast on my own which i assume he wasnt at home but hey at least i bought extra.. and guess what .. I lay down all the food at the living room and just wanna eat myself i thought he was gonna go out and eat .. But hey he just sit there and see me eat ... Why?? to ashamed to eat what i buy ... But hey im not so heartless la .. i still left the food for him.. He needs my mom to come home and tell him .. go and eat la the food .. God!! he think he some small kid or what .. idiot egoistic moron.. Face it la ... U are not fit to be a father already dont need to be so ego and proud.. Why u cant eat what ur son buy?? U need people to say ehh eat la .. Hey but plzz face it up to yourself u idiot .. If you treat people with respect .. it work both ways ...

U even say cause your the father you can do whatever you want .. AS theres a saying everyones human and doesnt mean your the father you got extra powers or shit and doesnt mean everything you do is right and everything we do is wrong .. STOP LIVING YOUR LIFE IN THE PAST IDIOT .. Everyone make mistakes and what happened is already done and over with SO GET OVER IT !! My brother is living his life happily and ur torturing yourself by being stuck in the past .. You dont want to accept that you already have two grand daughters thats your fucking problem but please dont make it difficult for everyone around you.. You wanna screw your own life you can just get lost and leave us ... We will let you .. Just let us go.. Not keep saying we dont listen to you and we dont respect you and throw ur tantrums like some small kid and raising ur voice and finding fault just cause you like it and it satisfies your ego !! Use ur brains a little when u talk!! For a person who is going to reach his fifties you are really childish and immature IM ACTUALLY SAD ?!?! i have such a father.

Fuck this man .. I give up .. If you want me to respect you or however your brain think is right in your own fuck up world guess what .. I give up and i dont give a fuck and get it in your thick skull you didnt fail as a father or a husband ... its because you have never even been one.

Oh yeaa .. if you actually lost your wife and two kids .. dont need to screw up the house with 3 birds which makes lots of noise in the house and trying to care for them. You already lose us ... dont torture living things just cause u feel like it or psychologically trying to get those 3 birds to be ur new family ... Because like last time u bought 5 fishes and before that was few birds and all of them died .. So stop building up ur sins and wake up you stupid old fool.. Try spending your money on your real family for a change or ACTUALLY HELP! and stop making the house in a mess with those stupid birds and make the home a worst place than it already is. A home suppose to be a place where everyone could feel happy and FEEL LIKE A HOME! And now it feels like a jungle with birds making so much noise .. ARGHH !! WHAT IS HE THINKING MAN !! $#$#@%@#$@##@ THATS IT MAN GOT NOTHING TO SAY !!@#@#@

Im my old self again ...

2009-03-25T22:55:00.003+08:00

Hey .. havent been bloggin for quite a while ... lazy and nothing much to blog i guess ... haha .. im in the stage where im hiding in a corner again and driving all my friends away .. few years back i thought my resolution was to cherish all the people around me .. but im back in the stage where i cant be bothered again .. and im ignoring my friends and driving them away .. what the hell am i doing .. arr whatever .. i dun even know what i want in life anymore .. everythings so fucking messed up ... Im sorry to my friends who those ask me out and i totally ignored their calls, smses .. etc .. i think i tried too hard and finally im the cant be bothered person again ...

Anywayz been squandering all my money trying to keep myself happy i guess money just keeps u happy only for the time being .... ;)

There's a saying .. You like to watch a movie/show over and over again because you know how the ending gonna turn out like .. but things doesnt always go your way and thats how life is ..

Anywayz i will stand up again ... this is just a short time being of falling down and hiding in my corner .. thats how i heal i guess..

Haiz the path of life ..

2009-02-18T20:47:00.002+08:00

Story of a person ..

A boy havent have much role models to look at or decide to be like who in the near future ... most people get their inspiration from people around them or family members or whatever .. he dunno .. he think he starting to realise that he have been too negative (pessimistic) most of the time than he dun realise the good things around him when they were around ..

He have a brother .. who's leading life assumed by him that its much happier although its hard handling a family at such a young age but he's leading life happier without getting involve in other matters beside his family and not need to think of anything else other than his family .. sometimes he envy his brother for making that step although it was too selfish on his part ...

Now this boy is staying with a retarded dad .. who have no priorities at all or care about his family at all .. and a mom who cares too much of her husband but the husband doesnt care about her at all .. and she's facing money difficulties and all she could turn to is the boy which is her only one left by her side .. she chose to do an easier job and shes earning less but shes not changing her expenses and she keep realising at the last minute she have no money left .. how irresponsible can she get .. and the retarded dad that is her husband dont even bother to give her or his family money ... and be thrifty or spend it on other craps besides his family ... sighh ..

While im typing this .. i feel so sad for the boy .. being stress over his personal problems himself and he's being trap in a family crap which he have to go home to everyday ... I just hope he can hang on really tight and not just fall off anytime ...

The boy just dont understand why his mom need to hold on to such a moronic bastard or keep a husband as inhuman as that .. he dont even compromise .. or think about others .. all he cares is his ego and himself and i dun even know how to describe the boy's father .. its just totally inhuman ... and he dun understand why would any wife hold on to a husband like that and suffer her whole life when she could just break it off and live happier being together with him makes no difference but making her son and her suffer so much ... SIGHHH !!@!#!@$@!#

The boy really gives up ... he have nothing more to say just wish he have someone by his side as a companion ... T_T !!

Havent been bloggin ...

2009-02-05T23:27:00.002+08:00

Hey hey .. havent quite been bloggin nothing to blog about i guess or im just lazy and too tired ...

Life is so boring or so fucked up for me as always .. things at home are as usual ... i totally give up ... or i should say i already been ignoring the shits thats been going on at home so blablabla bout it .. and the other stuffs that have been not so bright .. whatever .. i dun even know what im saying haha .. lets just say i dont see anything bright in my life .. i dun even know wtf to study if i wish to apply for uni or where to proceed in this part of crossroad in my life .. Arghh everythings so fucked up and whatever .. i been trying to look at the bright side but i keep falling down back or stones keep hitting me down again .. Whatever attitude of mine always triumph over me .. thats the way i grow up not bothering or care bout shits and just avoiding it which is so wrong .. Arghh enough of it .. i swear im gonna work things out and straighten everything .. i just need time like i always do .. =)!

Anywayz .. today after work .. or i escape from it .. since i already planned with yani to watch Bride Wars .. been wanting to watch it .. cause anne hathaway is in the show haha .. just love how pure, pretty and lovely she looks ... haha .. anywayz the show was great .. very funny and climax ... bout friendship shit .. was cool =)!

February 1st ..

2009-02-01T21:52:00.003+08:00

Damn guess what !!

ITS 1st FEBRUARY ALREADY !!

Seriously like a few mins ago of shutting my own eyes .. it was just the start of a new year 2009 now its already february .. Doesn't anyone notice that time passes by so fast or is it just me .. gosh it could be pretty scary! Im gonna be 22 this year >_< damnn!!

Anywayz my weekends been slacking and rotting at home cause im broke and too lazy to go out and when u got no bucks it sucks to go out u know what i mean!

I been crazy over this music artist album .. she sounds cool to me so yeaa ... Rockin along with her songs! Check it out .. its lesley roy ;)!

hmphh

2009-01-29T22:57:00.002+08:00

Wednesday .. yesterday didnt do nothing much went to work as usual back from the cny holidays ... wooo ... wednesday blues haha crappin ... anywayz after work went meet atik for dinner ... and she was off to work ... was wanting to eat at QIJI but was close haha .. cause my mom was working full shift ... would be alone at home .. After dinner she just went off to work and i went home boring life hahaha ...

Than today was worst ... my mom told me she started afternoon shift already wth .. no plans today wanted to ask someone out to eat again but got lazy should just slack at home and rot ... had maggi which is so unhealthy but who cares im darn lazy .. so yeaa .. haha was deciding to buy food but have no idea what crap to eat goshh ... so much for being independent haha ...

Lets see hows tmrw gonna be alright .. haha ... well byee ... im bloggin boring shit ... cause nothing happen and im being bored and lazy and so need to quit this cant be bothered attitude ... 0.o !

Lesley roy - Thinking out loud ..

2009-01-27T00:44:00.000+08:00

I've been losing my mind
I've been living a lie
I've been running away
For so long
I try to put on a face
And cover my heart
But I'm needing it now
So bad

I don't know
How I feel
Maybe I'm mad
Or maybe I'm proud
Can't find the truth
Can't speak my mind
Don't know what Ill say
I'm just thinking out loud
Thinking out loud

No, no I cant explain
What's happened to me
I feel like I'm right
And wrong
Inside everything's upside down
Everything's spinning around
And it's freaking me out

I don't know
How I feel
Maybe I'm mad
Or maybe I'm proud
Can't find the truth
Can't speak my mind
Don't know what Ill say
I'm just thinking out loud

If only for a day
I could be free
I bet you'd feel the same
If you were me
I'm gonna spit it out
Just let go.
I've been losing my mind
I've been living a lie
I've been running away
For so long

I don't know
How I feel
Maybe I'm mad
Or maybe I'm proud
Can't find the truth
Can't speak my mind
I don't know what Ill say
I'm just thinking out loud
I'm thinking out loud
Thinking out loud
Can't find the truth
Can't speak my mind
I don't know what Ill say
I'm just thinking out loud

The wedding game movie!

2009-01-26T20:11:00.003+08:00

Wee .. meet up atik at her workplace and catch a movie .. The wedding game!! it was funny and nice .. And the movie theater was really full ... so much for chinese new year when like 3/4 of the theater was all chinese hahaha ... =P! Nothing much to talk about but the show was quite nice not bad .. had sushi from ramen tan too !! blablabla ..

hmphh fri .. sat .. sun ..

2009-01-26T01:38:00.005+08:00

Thursday and Friday was nothing much at work as usual actually i cant remember what i did on that day anymore damn i have STM (Short term memory haha) so better blog what i remember happen on sat and today which is suppose to be sunday an hour or so ago ..... hmphh .. well saturday was slacking at home with my mom since she was off also .. and was planning to slack the whole day at home till my aunt ask us out to tampines mall to go out and chill and buy some stuffs. My mom is having neck back pain or whatever .. and she kept telling me over and over that its painful but she doesnt want to go to doctor and whatever and im not sure how to help sighhh ... but eventually we meet up with my aunt at tampines mall .. after walking there went simpang bedok to eat ... yummm ate nasi pattaya and others had mee goreng .. and whatever i forgot or i lazy to type haha .. and ROTI JOHN also .. hmphh than after eat went back home to sleep how convenient right by TAXI too .. hahaha!

Well Sunday which is today .. as planned meet up with yani, atik and zila !! Secondary school frens reunion .. havent meet up 4 of us in a while .. so we did .. was planning to go banquet and eat my wantan mee which i love there .. BUT THEY FORGOT TO INFORM ME CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE ITS CLOSE LA dammit .. lols .. so we ended up eating at the old sakura restaurant place which i have no idea whats it called ... LOL and i actually ate there gosh .. i had chicken dice fried rice yummm .. and fried wantan and dunno what chicken yani ordered it was nice ... than after that we had nowhere to go since most of the shops are closed .. we went to atik house to lepak !! Watched a show ... was very funny than ate instant noodle !! hahaha .. than went home around 9 plus .. woohoo

Tmrw meeting atik after work ... since shes all alone with her family off at holiday .. going to company her for the night maybe watching a movie or whatever not sure what the hell gonna do so deciding when i meet her up tmrw or maybe in a few hrs since its already monday 0.o! LOl alright .. thats all ..

OH AND YA .. i nearly forgot to wish everyone ..

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR !!

Wishing everyone good health and prosperity.

GONG XI FA CAI !!!

P.S for those who doesnt celebrate .. happy holidays !! =P!

weee ..

2009-01-21T22:09:00.004+08:00

hey hey !! Havent been bloggin same old work talk nothing much to blog .. anywayz today after work went to meet yani to do some catching up .. and yeaa miss her haha ... We went to catch a movie "All's Well End's Well 2009" it was very nice local (hongkong) or whatever movie show .. very funny .. u guys should check it out =)!! Well yeaa thats all of for the day!!

P.S. Im starting to realise that i miss a whole lot of people that i drift apart from .. and the one person im trying to talk to doesnt care .. haizz Busthird?? lol .. for anyone who read this and havent meet up with me for quite a while or very very long time .. I would like to say i miss you people!! :P! Even primary school or whatever or whoever ... lols ..

Avril Lavigne I will be !

2009-01-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

Avril Lavigne - I Will Be P.S Leona Lewis DONT SING IT NICE its Avril's Original SONG !!

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

Refrain:
I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

Chorus:
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Verse 2:
I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, coz you're here with me

Refrain:
And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Coz I will never let you go

Chorus:
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Bridge:
Coz without you I can't sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah...

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

Chorus:
And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart

All my life (my life), I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Chorus:
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart

And all my life, you know I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay (more)

Weekends ..

2009-01-19T21:11:00.002+08:00

My weekends been nothing much just the same boring old thing rotting at home haha ... Saturday i spend the day sleeping my afternoon away ..

Well ya suck up sleeping more make me more tired ... BOO .. anywayz .. sunday was rotting at home too since no one was at home .. love to have the whole house to myself woohoo .. on the tv .. on the computer .. on the lights and everything and have the whole house under my control whaaha ... cant imagine how that feels .. remember home alone movie show yaya :P!! LOL

Well that night than meet up with my aunt and cousins to celebrate her husband belated bday which was on the 16th jan .. we were in swensen making havoc which is so funny .. =)!

Here's some pictures ... over there .. sorry no pictures of me hahaha .. not such a cam whorer and i was taking the picture 0.o! And its not a birthday party was just eating together =)!

hahaha today friday!

2009-01-16T23:26:00.003+08:00

Well well .. been tired to blog .. but today after work i met up with my mom and my bro, his wife and his kids .. my 2 lovely nieces .. took pictures of the younger one Akila .. Here's some pictures of them ! Just went tampines mall to walk around ..

Picture of her with my mom (her grandma/Nenek) hahah!

So cute right .. She shaking the sweet happily! hahaha

Trying to chew the tissue 0.o!

Finally bought my new phone W595 sony ericsson!

2009-01-13T23:36:00.003+08:00

Wahaha .. finally bought my new phone since few months of losing my old phone and been using a dumb 2nd hand phone .. my new phone sony ericsson W595! Its not so bad got 2 gig memory micro sd and a 3.2 megapixel camera :P!!

Haha atik accompany me to get the phone ... Thanks atik .. ! Thats all i got to say i guess other than that work been as usual .. BLERGHHH $@#%@#$#@$@# lol ..
Oh and ya .. heres a picture of the phone and i ate with atik pizza hut for our dinner :P!! WEeeee !

Sat .. Sun and Monday !!

2009-01-12T23:32:00.002+08:00

Saturday went my aunt place .. to set up the router for my cousin .. finally it work out .. haha ... Than hang out there .. and stuff .. boring nothing special ..

Sunday went to my relatives wedding ... my grandma and my uncle-in-law was involve in it .. so i kinda sat there the whole day haha .. The wedding was pretty cool heres just one picture of the bride and groom.

The picture not so clear whaha .. snapshot from far..

Some pictures at the wedding .. my cousins playing at the playground cause was too bored ..

Lols .. my aunt was saying free show this two kiddies clapping and dancing to the songs at the wedding.

Lol few of my cousins become the flower girls ..

Than after the wedding .. later that night went to fetch my aunt at airport she went bangkok and coming back to singapore .. Look at her kids .. waiting for their mom to arrive haha .. cant stop playing around ..

Ok than today monday .. well a few mins ago haha .. At work was as usual .. i keep finding the things that are not done properly .. and the sir will call everyone and say why is it not done properly and he will start scolding again ... its like i always find the errors and he will say im giving him a headache .. and even one of the senior ns guy told me the sir didnt mean to be so harsh now he paiseh or something haha .. oh well .. Than after work decided to meet up with my secondary school frens .. atik and yani than meet up with my long lost sister also haha .. Rabiah .. =)! Just getting rid of my stress cause had a fight with my mom oh well .. It totally made my day wahaha ..

Here's a picture of her and me at kfc ;)!

Damn tired ...

2009-01-08T00:30:00.002+08:00

Gosh today 7th january which has already pass a few mins ago haha .. was such a tiring day for me .. felt so shag in the morning to wake up for work .. and was like tired at work but i was fine ... didnt went back after work .. was planning to slack around with friends but didnt quite plan it well enough or im freaking fickled minded haha ...

Well .. decided to meet up with my mom after she finished her work .. she said gonna eat and stuff with her friends also so just ask me to tag along and i was like ok ... So yeaa i did ... and kinda felt out of space .. but after a while i was fine ... Than after eating at sakura .. went to watch movie Bedtime Stories .. it wasnt that bad was just kinda lame and too imaginary but it was funny on the upside ... especially the guinea pig and its BIG eyes haha .. hell made me laugh a few times ... so yeaa day at work tmrw again in a few hours i guess im gonna take my rest ... Or the boss gonna be making noise again ... but hey the other boss was nice to treat me lunch :P! haha ... alright thats all .. update again soon .. ;)!

hey hey ..

2009-01-06T01:36:00.002+08:00

Haha .. hey people .. i havent been bloggin .. sorry it got so dusty here .. :P I was in camp few months back and was really lazy to blog .. and not much to say also NS BORING AND SUCK haha .. well im not in camp anymore since last november .. im currently at AIRPORT POLICE DIVISION as a Staff Assistant .. :P! haha .. Office hour job and all .. pretty cool but stressful too at times ... not much details now to talk about it .. anywayz .. YA GUYS HAPPY 2009! May everyone start a new chapter of their lives again and let bygones be bygones and look forward to upcoming craps .. :P! Anywayz last christmas eve and new year eve was pretty happening got to be deployed as a patrol policeman at clarke quay .. handle cases and be equipped and shit .. it was pretty cool ;)! Well for now i got not much to say .. but i will be updating .. And do drop by my facebook u guys i have one :P! Add me if u guys havent .. !

Wee guess want to post ..

2008-07-27T16:47:00.003+08:00

Last week didnt post cause wasnt feeling so well man ... So far having flu and fever for the past week and still having flu now .. dammit hate getting sick ... Well last week 19th july was my mom birthday on the saturday ... So on the saturday met up with my bunk mates to watch Dark Knight at Cathay Orchard ... around noon than walk around and stuff than at night watch midnight movie with my family Hellboy II ... so call celebration for my mom's birthday ... and i was at orchard from 12 noon to 3 am ... haha .. was rocking but damn tiring ... the moment i reach home .. i was dead on the bed .. Than on sunday met up with yani to eat and buy stuff and that was it ...

This week boring ... my mom's working and even tonight she work till 10pm wont be seeing her when i book in later .. oh well this week didnt spend time with her since shes working ... wanna say sad ... thats just how it is ... Just stayed at home this week ... cause trying to recover fully still not feeling so well stupid flu haha ...
Oh well thats all i gotta say i guess .. Nothing to share at NS cause it sucks there .. haha well not totally just im not up to everything there .. oh well staying strong and trying my best =)!

song !

2008-07-11T20:24:00.000+08:00

Everytime I think I'm closer to the heart
What it means to know just who I am
I think I've finally found a better place to start
But no one ever seems to understand
I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be you're not that far?

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you.
You´re the missing piece I need, the song inside of me
I need to find, I gotta find you.

You're the remedy I'm searching now to find,
To fix the puzzle that I see inside,
Waiting on my dreams, the color of your smile,
When I find you it will be all right.
I need to try, to get to where you are,
Could it be, you're not that far?

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing,
I need to find you, I gotta find you.
You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me,
I need to find you, I gotta find you.

I've been feeling lost, can't find the words to say,
Spending all my time, stuck in yesterday.
Where you were, is where I want to be,
Oh, next to you, you next to me.
I need to find you, yeah...

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing,
I need to find you, I gotta find you.
You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me,
I need to find you, I gotta find you.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singin,
I need to find you, I gotta find you.
You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me,
I need to find you, I gotta find you.

I gotta find you.

Happy Birthday Fazila!

2008-07-06T09:59:00.003+08:00

Ok so far .. my 3rd bookout already .... i think .. or i miscounted myself also .. haha .. Everythings been fine .. or should i say trying to make everything sound fine although a bit sian ... oh well people say get it over with right ..

Well yesterday saturday .. meet up with zila, yani and atik ... to celebrate zila's advanced birthday just 4 of us .. as i dont think im coming over to her party today ... Sorry zila ... wanna start packing and stuff .. Although Happy 21st Birthday !!! Dah Tua !! haha ... So yeaa ... i met up with zila at tamp yesterday at 6pm than waited for yani to finish work at GV tamp .. than we went shopping around for a while than we went to GIANT at Pasir Ris one the total Big one haha ... to buy some snacks etc ... than went back home to zila's to celebrate and waiting for atik to come when she finish work ... Everything was great .. =)!

Lets back track .. my 2nd bookout i went watch movie "Get Smart" with my mom.. and had our mother and son time ... Cause she been really busy working and stuff last weekend was the only time she was off so i went to catch a movie with her .. and shop and stuff ... Really miss her haha .. cause this week she's working again cant spend time with her ..

Well thats all i have to blog i guess .. =P

First Book Out!

2008-06-22T14:36:00.003+08:00

Haha get to walk out 2 days ago friday at 6pm after 10 days of confinement ..
Everythings fine .. Training isnt so bad .. although waking up in the morning everyday at 5.30 am just to drink water is really like what the hell ..

So the moment i got out .. my bro fetch me .. than went home .. than went to my aunt house ... to meet my aunt and grandma and my little cousins haha .. Really felt the family warmth there.. Than after that went to my bro house to chill a bit wait for my mom to finish work .. than we went to Newton food centre to eat with my mom, bro's family and my sis-in-law brother's family. It was fun .. we ate lots of stuff but the funny thing was when the bill comes .. it was $117 !! Haha and my bro was like wth .. and found out the BIG PRAWNS we ate was like $70 bucks for 6 of them .. Than everyone got so chaotic funny shit .. haha and it was the joke of the day after eating bout the prawns .. The best prawn watever ..

So yea thats it for the friday .. Next saturday morning meet up with yani to go see the face doctor cause she wanted to go and also to meet her .. than go beach road grab some stuffs and eat .. so yea after that i just went home to rest .. and yea today im booking it at 9pm !! Damn the feeling of being back home and need to go back there really feels so shitty and shag !! The thing i miss most is not having the time to spend with my mom cause shes working all the way .. oh well next week she says she gonna off for friday .. saturday and sunday hopefully could spend time with her!! haha ..

And below is my BOTAK FACE NS card .. damn look so weird haha cause they were like smile but dont smile .. and my face is like wanting to smile and not smile .. and yea botak head and blacker look like MONKEY hahaha !!

And graduation photos up on stage received them already so yea the pictures are below!! =)!!

Before entering police academy..

2008-06-08T23:14:00.003+08:00

Ok my weekends were wisely spend i guess .. Met up with my secondary school friends on saturday .. they gave me a so call farewell party before i enter police academy haha .. Went to arnolds at City Plaza to eat .. than went shopping and stuff at tampines .. had a lot to talk and stuffs chilled at starbucks at tamp also .. till quite long .. than meet has .. than went home ...

What we had at Arnolds .. Fish and chip .. half chicken .. Squid rings .. Criss-cross fries, wedges .. and whatsoever .. And thanks Atik for the treat! Although u had to go off early .. Appreciate it =)!

Than at starbucks Tamp .. Thanks Zila .. For the free drinks used by ur coupon haha .. Caramel Frappe .. and the new dark mocha drink .. and ur so call "famous amos that u bought just now" haha!

Than today (Sunday) went to my auntie house ... to celebrate my cousin's belated bday and so call advanced father's day with my mom's grandpa ... Than while was there i just realised a great big thing that totally struck me .. Suddenly i felt like i was fatherless .. or i have a father who dont care god knows shit only cares bout himself .. but i was so grateful and thankful to have such a caring aunt and her husband .. who tell me all the stuffs to take care of myself and stuff when im going police academy and everything .. Suddenly i felt like for once i have a father haha .. unlike the moron at home who dont care if im alive or not .. oh well .. Regardless of it all .. im so thankful ... =) !

NYP graduation 2008

2008-05-21T15:42:00.003+08:00

Woot .. Graduation ceremony today reached sch at 7.30am !!

Than blablabla .. woohooo finally graduated .. Grats everyone ALL MY FRIENDS!!
Everyone was so rushing and i only get chance to take a few pictures .. wanted take more .. but all like busy taking their own .. and too paiseh to join in hahah.. Nevertheless who i never take picture with ... i will still remember always !! Once again grats everyone =)!! May life ahead for all of you be full of joy more exciting events. P.S. Who i never get to take picture with so sorry T_T cant find u guys also and like everyone rushing

With my mom!

With chinese friends haha in FYP!

With dya!

With Bo aka Liyana!

With Pei Ling!

With Samantha!

With Ada!

With Kyn!

With Sallehin!

With Juli!

Group Photos!

Makna Diri Saya .. Macam betul =P!

2008-05-12T18:10:00.002+08:00

My aunt send me an email to describe yourself in which month u were born in .. and it sure sounds kinda right =P!

SEPTEMBER

* Sangat bersopan santun & bertolak ansur.
* Sangat cermat, teliti & teratur.
* Suka menegur kesilapan orang lain & mengkritik.
* Pendiam tapi pandai bercakap.
* Sikap sangat cool, sangat baik & mudah simpati.
* Sangat perihatin & terperinci, amanah, setia & jujur.
* Kerja yang dilakukan sangat sempurna.
* Sangat sensitif yang tidak diketahui.
* orang yang banyak berfikir.
* Daya pentaakulan yang baik.
* Otak bijak & mudah belajar.
* Suka mencari maklumat.
* Kawal diri dari terlalu mengkritik.
* Pandai mendorong diri sendiri.
* Mudah memahami orang lain kerana banyak menyimpan rahsia.
* Suka sukan, hiburan & melancong.
* Kurang menunjukkan perasaannya.
* Terluka hatinya sangat lama disimpan.
* Terlalu memilih pasangan.
* Sukakan benda yang luas.
* Bersistematik

Jazlina's birthday ..

2008-05-02T17:30:00.004+08:00

ok one more of my cousin's birthday haha .. it falls on labour day .. i slept at my favourite aunt's house on 30th .. to help blow balloons and decorate the house so yaa ... than goes on the long day of celebration .. helping collect the cake .. do errands and crap .. had fun but at the end of it all woah was i tired haha =)!

haha blog again!

2008-04-26T20:39:00.003+08:00

Alright been really long since i blog .. maybe cause i been cooping up at home having not much of a life haha ..

Oh well anywayz .. last week i went my aunt's house cause its one of their daughter's birthday .. and yea thats the day i been out from the house for weeks ...

Anywayz look at how many small cousins i have .. god knows what the future will be like when they all have grown up and me .. i sure cant look ahead to it yet haha .. not forgetting my 2 nieces .. The picture below =)

And TODAY been a blast .. we celebrate atikah's belated birthday which was on the 16th of april haha .. so sorry atik we celebrate so late .. cause of the others not free and whatever to meet up .. but yet we had fun .. firstly meet up 9.30am with yani and zila and bedok interchange than meet up atik at parkway .. and than we go to big splash .. to eat kfc .. and go starbucks to celebrate .. than we went back to parkway cause yani had to go to work .. than after that we walk around parkway for a bit .. than zila and atik and me went to bugis by car .. haha atik drive =P than atik's sis join us later we went kallang leisure mall than after that to sim lim and yea than back to parkway haha .. to eat anderson's ice cream .. after that atik and her sis went home .. and zila and me walk around parkway for a bit .. and yea after that around 6pm we went home ..

So ya overall .. i had fun went out from 9.30am to 6.30 pm haha ... =)

With me lyrics Sum 41 !

2008-04-10T12:57:00.000+08:00

I don't want this moment, to ever end,
Where everything's nothing, without you.
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile,
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

Through it all, I made my mistakes.
I stumble and fall,
But I mean these words.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go.

Thoughts read are spoken, forever in doubt.
And pieces of memories fall to the ground.
I know what I did and so, I won't let this go.
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

All the streets, where I walked alone,
With nowhere to go.
Have come to an end.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go.

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you don't know what you're looking to find.
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you just never know what you will find.

(What you will find, what you will find, what you will find.)

I don't want this moment to ever end.
Where everything's nothing without you.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let (go).
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go.

So long hadnt blog ..

2008-04-09T23:32:00.002+08:00

Haha .. been a while since i last blog .. nothing to say i suppose

I cant believe poly life is over and graduation soon in a month .. than ns next the next month ..

I wish during the time of path i have been given i could figure out what i really want out of life .. Life doesnt seem so bad now ... haha well seems like it cause i already put behind all the crappy things thats going on and whatever .. =P

Well not much to say i guess thats it haha !

me blogg ...

2008-02-24T20:40:00.003+08:00

Alright .. everythings over ... exams over .. waiting for results .. hope everythings gonna be great .. than graduation .. than army?? than what ?? Im so lost i dunno what i want in my life .. how boring can i get .. thats what a friend of mine commented .. im so boring that my life is not even colorful at all .. what do i do all day ?? ya right rot .. eat .. sleep .. play thats all i do cause im so lazy to work! .. i just want a break .. but it seems like im slacking my life away ... i just hope my future dont seem so crap out as it is now haha ..

I know i will get to my state of wanting what i want when the time comes .. cause it always do =)! For now .. i wanna spend my live as a "KID" slacking as much as i can before all the adulthood gonna affect and change my life forever .. so have fun while i still can =P!!

And yea .. my bro came over the other day .. and woah my 2nd niece so big already =) Aqila !! =) Lols i guess thats how they spell her name =x !

The song totally describe the way in my house!

2008-02-11T23:54:00.000+08:00

I just have to blog on this song .. i exactly feel and the song really describes whats going on in my house !! thats all i have to blog .. exams exams .. im so stress .. im so lazy to study like last time .. im gonna say it I HATE EXAMS ! LOl!! Here goes the lyrics of the song !

Staring out at the world across the street.
You hate the way your life turned out to be.
He's pulling up the driveway and you don't make a sound.
Cause you always learned to hold the things you want to say.
You're always gonna be afraid.
There's only hate.
There's only tears.
There's only pain.
There is no love here.
So what will you do?
There's only lies.
There's only fear.
There's only pain.
There is no love here.

Broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces.
You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile.
If these walls could talk, they would have so much to say.
Cause everytime you fight, the scars are gonna heal.
But they're never gonna go away.
You're falling.
You're screaming.
You're stuck in the same old nightmare.
He's lying.
You're crying.
There's nothing left to salvage.
Kick the door cause this is over.
Get me out of here!

love part of the lyric

2008-02-10T11:10:00.000+08:00

Waking up, lost in a fog,
You were the light that led me home,
Over come, thought i was strong,
Thought I could make it on my own,
I Fooled myself but believe me now,

Cus I don't wanna let you go,
I'd be lost without you,
I think you should know,
I'm here
And I don't wanna let you go,

Lying here, under the stars
I feel the beating of your heart
By your side, thats were ill be
You can put your trust in me
I'll hold ya tight, Just stay tonight

Wee .. feel like bloggin..

2008-01-30T03:26:00.000+08:00

Heyy people haha .. havent been bloggin for a while ..
yea so its the week where tests and submission of projs are all like in the same week and time ... i remember last time stress would get to me haha .. but hey this semester is like .. whatever .. try my best and thats it no stressing ...

Lets just wait and see how everything goes right ..

School gonna end .. and part of me cant wait .. cause i kinda am tired of studying already i need a very very long break haha .. on the downside .. i wont get use to not going to school and not meet all classmates and friends .. When the time comes ... hopefully i would say i remember and miss everyone i met in poly for the 3 yrs i was in .. and may all that i know keep in touch ;)!

Who am i this days ??

2008-01-18T00:08:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i dont recognize myself anymore ... Who am i what have i become .. i know i have changed sometimes i dunno what im doing anymore or what im thinking ..

I know a lot have happen but i dont know how much its actual affecting me and the way i think sometimes ... i so need to get a grip and think straight .. -.-

The song ..

2008-01-14T10:07:00.000+08:00

I haven't been home for a while
I'm sure everything's the same
Mom and Dad both in denial
An only child to take the blame

Sorry, Mom, but I don't miss you
Father's no name you deserve
I'm just a kid with no ambitions
Wouldn't come home for the world

Never know what I've become
The king of all that's said and done
The forgotten son

This cities buried in defeat
I walk along these no-name streets
Wave goodbye to All.....

As I fall...

At the dead-end I begin
To burn a bridge of innocence
Satisfaction guaranteed
A pillow-weight catastrophe

Our own mission nowhere bound
Inhibitions underground
A shallow grave I
Have dug all by myself

And now I've been gone for so long
I can't remember who was wrong
All innocence is long gone
I pledge allegiance to a world of disbelief
Where I belong

A walking disaster
The son of all bastards
You regret you made me
It's too late to save me
(You regret you made me
It's too late to save me)

As far as I can tell
It's just voices in my head
Am I talking to myself?
'Cause I don't know what I just said

(And she said)
As far as where I fell
Maybe I'm better off dead
Am I at the end of nowhere
Is this as good as it gets?

And now I've been gone for so long
I can't remember who was wrong
All innocence is long gone
I pledge allegiance to a world of disbelief
Where I belong

A walking disaster
The son of all bastards
You regret you made me
It's too late to save me
(To save me, to save me, to save me, ...)

("It's too late") [x2]

To save me, to save me, to save me, to save me

And now I've been gone for so long
I can't remember who was wrong
All innocence is long gone
I pledge allegiance to a world of disbelief
Where I belong

A walking disaster
The son of all bastards
You regret you made me
It's too late to save me

I will be home in a while
You don't have to say a word
I can't wait to see you smile
Wouldn't miss it for the world

I will be home in a while
You don't have to say a word
I can't wait to see you smile
Wouldn't miss it for the world

Fear and sadness

2008-01-08T01:33:00.000+08:00

How do u live in a house every single day and see ur parents quarrel?
How do u sleep at night dreaming everytime u hear they quarrelling u fear that something tragic would happen to your mom ..
How do u go through life every single day wondering if ur mom would be alright ...
How ... how do i do this anymore .. i cant take it ..

Why must i be in such position where i have to see all this shits going on in my life .. why does other people have such normal families and have family time and outings and could be among each other's love .. when all i have everyday is just trap within my sorry plight ...

I give up living a life like this i cant take it anymore .. how i wish i could talk to someone who understands or hear me out ... for once tonight ... i look around and i actually dont got anyone to talk to ... maybe i could talk to a few people but i dont think i wanna waste their time or would they actually care about my shit ... I dont know what im gonna do tmrw .. but i told my aunt im gonna stay there and not come home anymore but i havent decide totally what to do ...

Im feeling so terrible right now i just wish i was erase from this earth ..

=) just feel like bloggin ..

2007-12-30T04:44:00.000+08:00

Alright hi people .. haha i havent been bloggin .. got a lot of things i wanna share but doubt i even bothered to haha ..

Hmph so whats first .. oh yeahh .. if u guys havent heard the news yet .. i QUIT my job haha .. well got too stress over it .. and something happen with the staff .. was total pissed with everything .. so i kinda just disappeared the next day and did a silent resignation with my sales Rep yap yap ..

And yea school gonna open and yeaa .. sighh what am i doing i have no idea .. full of shit man for once i gotta say it i Hate school ... im so not in the mood anymore to study shits ... for once i actually failed something and gets so lazy to even study and i think im gonna fail more and more .. haizz whats happening but yea ... thats the new me ... skipping classes and cheating/copying seems like nothing to me when i actually hate all that ..

Im starting to realise i totally took a Turn in my life .. literally everything .. Most of the thing i use to care about and think it was the right thing to do doesnt matter anymore ... Friendss?? Bullshit .. you wanna be friends with me .. act like one ... im not some shithead who have to be a friend and helpful and whatever to just gain someone as a friend .. if u ever know the meaning of friend or the basic need of it .. it works both ways ... u care and u treat a person as a friend ... the friend need to do it too .. if its one sided that .. thats not friend .. thats using someone ...

I use to think that everything should be the way i think it should be ... and if somethings goes wrong i will be like so over my perfectionist crap .. why like that ... than get so upset with it like some moron haha .. But hey .. now im like "CINCAI" whatever .. that happens .. this happen .. so what .. life goes on .. yea im with my whatever attitude .. example .. i failed a test .. so what .. its done and over with .. get upset ?? i dont care .. haha its over .. fail fail la .. use to remember a person who keep saying that .. guess shes more happy i understand now ...

I realise .. i dont need a reality check or do some soul searching .. I HAVE CHANGED .. i do think its wrong or somepart is not what i want it .. but hey im fine with everything ... people change and grow .. and i know what affects me to the change .. and u know its hard to change .. the main thing is i know whats right and wrong .. at least im not smoking ... or stealing ... or something majorly nuts haha !!

yea yea thats all i gotta say ... for friends and use to be my friends and everyone ... i will always be me .. and ONLY ME .. the way i am cause thats what makes any individual UNIQUE and the world goes round .. but one thing i would never do is do something bad or wrong UNLESS i feel the right to .. ;)!

Finally Carrie underwood new album and im hook to one of the songs !! Wheel of the World ;)! May not be ur type of song but it is for me .. haha

Love goes out, out like a light
Out like a flame, and you can't find it anymore
Just when you think it's lost in the rain
It comes back knocking at your door

It's the wheel of the world turning around
It's the wheel of the world turning around
And around

God put us here on this carnival ride
We close our eyes
Never knowing where it will take us next
Babies are born and at the same time, someone's taking their last breath

It's the wheel of the world
It's the wheel of the world turning around

In the blink of an eye
It can change your life
And it never even slows down

It's the wheel of the world

I don't know what it is
I'm flying high
Then I'm wondering why I'm sinking on this ship, going down
Life keeps on moving anyway

It's the wheel of the world
It's the wheel of the world turning around
It's the wheel of the world
It's the wheel of the world turning around
It's the wheel of the world turning around
And around
And around
It's the wheel of the world turning around

It can open your heart
It can break you apart
And it never even slows down

It's the wheel of the world turning around
It's the wheel of the world turning around
It's the wheel of the world turning around
It's the wheel of the world turning around
And around

Yani's birthday post !

2007-12-14T01:42:00.000+08:00

Well 12th december was yani's birthday turning 20.. (haha all of us are a 2 already) .. went to watch alvin & the chipmunks .. it was a hilarious show .. although it was kinda short and whatsoever .. the funny scenes were there to perk the show all up haha! Considerable great show ..

Thats about it i guess ... nothing special to share or talk about .. except tmrw im working as usual ... blehh !! How i wish i could just rot at home haha! But nah .. so much healthier out there working .. at least i get the sun and fresh air and at least eating the right food outside .. other than rotting at home and lazy to even GET myself HEALTHY FOOD hahaha ;)!

Pictures of my second niece...

2007-12-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

Ok pictures of my second niece ... her name akira or something dunno la hahaha! Didnt have a chance to ask properly !

Really tired ... im slacking too much ... haizz ... Work and school really dun mix!

Sian to the max !!

2007-12-08T10:50:00.000+08:00

Dammit im so lazy to go to work haha .. so much so for coming to work yesterday FRIDAY and the freaking staff was like ... i tot u off u know today .. in my heart i so should have stayed at home .. wahaha .. than i was like Jane (Supervisor) ask to come what .. than everyone was like "ehh Boy u come ??" and all the so call crap .. no school ar holiday already blabla .. dohh hahaha ... Now saturday lazy to go work laaa !!! Lol ..

Blehh ... yesterday my mom went to visit my bro cause my sis-in-law already given birth to another niece of mine =P! pity i couldnt go due to work dohh .. if not i so would have snap lots of pictures hahaha ... i ask my mom and she didnt even take one shot -.-"! lols ... oh well ..

Wahaha than i was talking to an auntie at work i always go eat with .. and she had this theory that anyone who keep getting girls are THRIFTY stingy people wahahha .. i was like "OK 0_o"!!" hahaha !! than it got me thinking that one of my other auntie got 4 girls and damn she sure is stingy hahaha! but than i ask her my dad so fucking stingy why got 2 boys hahahaha ... cause my mom is not wahha thats true =P! So call crap believes lols .. just following up with my tots it maybe kind of true ;)!

Okkk im gonna crap a bit than off to work ... LAZINESS !! HAHA!

sighh work work work ...

2007-12-04T10:37:00.000+08:00

Lately things doesnt seem so bright ..
Been really been busy with work .. school, friends, family as usual seems like topsy turvy ...

Sighh hahaha .. whats happening ... been really lazy to go sch and crap especially mondays due to work and when mondays ur tired .. it follow up all across the days of the week .. hahah ..
And worst now cause its christmas season .. supervisor and sales rep ask to work fri, sat, sun Full shift (11am to 10pm) for the whole of december .. i was like 0_o ok ... in my heart god .. "feel like quitting man but pity the staff and guess money still an issue for me" ...
Not forgetting only eating 1 meal when i work ... guess the mood isnt there .. from 9am i woke up for work till 7pm than i have my first meal .. isnt that inhuman or what .. literally like fasting haha no wonder im bones -.-!

I dont quite wanna talk bout friends .. i guess i cant be bothered ... its the last thing i wanna care about in my head since everything that happens ... just know that i would never do anything literally to start any nonsense if i didnt do anything wrong .. if i done something wrong than fine i would apologize .. if ur friends with me over 3 yrs and u dunno what kind of person i am and what to expect of me than there's something really WRONG with u ..

Family ... hah .. thats the joke of all .. my dad's birthday was 2nd dec .. and for once in the how many upteen years i ACTUALLY forgot .. geez .. i was shock myself but i dont seem to care .. my mom just told me .. u dont wish ur dad ?? im like ignoring her .. cause she knows the fact he dun even freaking care about our birthdays why do i for the least should care for his ... neither do he even care about the whole family anymore .. so he could dream on if im gonna wish him .. haha .. when my mom was asking me to .. i swear to god i saw his look just waiting for me to utter the words .. but hey .. Wait long long la! The best u got was ur previous best son (my brother) wishing u instead! So salvage whats left for u to get!

Following on the past few weeks ... projects .. quizzes .. tests ... work .. so juggled it all till im going mad haha ... But im hanging on .. =)!

wee ..

2007-11-26T00:33:00.000+08:00

Haha .. love working man !! Everyones great ... each time i go to work ... everything for sure makes my day ! With my so call godmother and everyone i work with are always great ;)!!

A song lyric im currently hook on ..

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]

and another ...

We're doing it

I look around me
But all I seem to see
Is people going nowhere
Expecting sympathy
It's like I'm going through the motions
Of a scripted destiny
Tell me where's our inspiration
If life won't wait
I guess it's up to me

(Whoa) no we're not gonna waste another moment in this town
(Whoa) and we won't come back
The world is calling out
(Whoa) leave the past in the past
Gonna find the future
Misery loves company
Well so long
You'll miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone

Procrastination
Running circles in my head
While you sit there contimplating
You wound up left for dead (you’re left for dead)
Life is what happens
While you're busy making your excuses
Another day
Another casualty
But that won't happen to me

(Whoa) no we're not gonna waste another moment in this town
(Whoa) and we won't come back
The world is calling out
(Whoa) leave the past in the past
Gonna find the future
Misery loves company
Well so long
You'll miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone (2x)
When I'm gone

Let's go!

Won't look back
When I say goodbye
Gonna leave this all behind me
Gonna take what's mine tonight
‘Cause every wasted day
Becomes a wasted chance
Your gonna wake up feeling sorry
‘Cause life won't wait
I guess it's up to you

(Whoa) no we're not gonna waste another moment in this town
(Whoa) and we won't come back
The world is calling out
Whoa, leave the past in the past
Gonna find the future
Misery loves company
Well so long
You'll miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone (4x)

Outing with sec sch frens :)!

2007-11-23T22:43:00.000+08:00

Woot .. went out with my sec sch friends .. went watch "ENCHANTED" haha .. the movie is cool u guys .. everyone must watch it ... its so funny and cool ... The lovey dovey crap totally rox ! =P!

After the movie .. atik treat us to pizza .. thanks atik !! Full for the night haha .. Tmrw working and sunday too .. and next week got presentation and test .. BAH AGAIN! So tired of studying .. haha

Anywayz i realize something .. in such a short amount of time .. anyone could change ... without them knowing ... every part of environment we get involved or into actually change ourselves without us knowing haha .. So many years pass ... i see everyone around me change but i dunno if i have change .. but one thing i realise im kinda scared of change .. im not the person who venture out and change and taking risks is just not my thing .. but sometimes if i have to i would ... ;)! And i know taking risks and change is apart of life and sometimes its good that we do that for the better of things ... !!

My friday haha ..

2007-11-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

Ok today my mom off day so yaa .. she want to go out with me for so long already so yeaa i told her we go watch movie la .. than go her mom's house .. wanna meet my aunt and the kiddies haha ;)!

Yeaa went watch stardust .. yep yep it was great .. than went to punggol to go my grandma's house .. than my aunt wasnt home haha she went out to compass point .. so we sat there a while chat with my grandma, and my great grandmother and after a while we went to compass point to meet my aunt and the kiddies haha .. damn miss them so much .. than after that .. went parkway after meet my uncle .. he drive the lorry haha we sat behind ... cool feeling of the wind and stuff whahaha ... than had the talk about my dad again .. and my uncle was like ..

"Tell ur mom to break up with ur dad fast before its too late ... more now he already said he got a woman and admit it already and always throw crap tantrums at home .." than i was like i told her already but she wont do anything . .whats there for me to do .. Haizz even my aunt and uncle keep telling her do it now before its too late .. blabla ... shes still the same ... oh well its my mom i cant say anything ... she decides whether she wanna be happy or not! And i just wish she wont realise when its really too late to turn back time and do what she had to do ... Sighhhhh ... why im in such position ... !!! How i wish everything was more cheery and bright ..

Oh well tmrw working !! and sunday too .. haha .. than back to school ... and crap i havent do anything ... with assignments and quizzes and tests and whatever .. i so havent done anything !! Lolss .. !! ZAINI what u been doing for 1 week study break haha .. "play game" wahahah .. oh well !! hope everything goes fine ;)

Im more optimistic now than i ever was .. :)!

Not blogging for a while ...

2007-11-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

Havent been bloggin for sometime ..
Been busy with sch and work ....
Tired!!!
Next week study break and im so gonna rot at home or go to my grandma's house .. i miss hanging out with my small cousins and maybe i so SHOULD STUDY A BIT...

I cant remember the last time i use to play best friends .. normal friends and whatever friends haha those CHILDISH DAYS .. i realise i have a few close friends but not the real true friend which i could talk to everyday u know ... i give up trying to find a special friend ... cause each time i get close to anyone everything turns out wrong ... and i realise im better off being on my own ;)! So friends with everyone but no special ones ..

Thats it !! ... The question running in my head whats next when i have graduated from poly ..

Timbaland - Apologize (Cool Song)!!

2007-10-30T20:45:00.001+08:00

Timbaland Feat One Republic - Apologize

Im holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I’m hearing what you say
But I just can’t make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around and say..

That it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late

I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it’s turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I’m afraid

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
Woahooo woah

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it’s too late to apologize, a yeah

I’m holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

Hari raya pictures with nypians!!

2007-10-30T19:02:00.000+08:00

Haha the hari raya pictures day out with my nyp friends!! On saturday 27th oct! Thanks hajar for the pictures !! =P!

Saturday and Sunday My weekends!

2007-10-29T13:42:00.000+08:00

Saturday, 27th of october .. was supposed to be working haha but i skipped and went to "jalan raya" celebrate hari raya with bunch of my nyp friends.. haha .. total of about 10 of us i think with 2 cars haha visiting each other houses except for mine .. cause not yet open house la haha! This friday 2nd nov is my open house!! Anyone wanna come just come ok :P!! haha .. but maybe inform me first .. :)!

We started at around noon visiting till i think i reached home reaching midnight haha! it was cool :)! Yap thats about it the whole day visiting with bunch of them.

The moment i reach home after had lots of meals at every house haha i knock out flat on the bed! The next day woke up to go to work.

The moment i reached work everyone was giving me the "stare" haha .. than when i walk to my counter .. the supervisor was there asking why i didnt turn up yesterday and didnt inform anyone haha! I was like .. i had something on so yaa .. thats about it .. good thing never got scolded or anything. haha than after that the staff there was like .. i off yesterday u also didnt come .. and nobody standing .. i was like i didnt know haha .. i thought i told u and all that rubbish doh! haha.. than carry on everyone was like why didnt come yesterday and blablabla ... hah ..

Thats about it i guess ..

Day out today!

2007-10-26T22:42:00.000+08:00

Its been quite sometime since i blog because school starts and im actually kinda struggling i didnt expect year 3 to be this hard i guess or im so used being relaxed and understanding everything .. but lately i have no idea what im learning .. lols guess it takes time and more of my effort .. I will get the hang of it i know i would ;)!

Anywayz today met up with atik again today .. to go doctor as usual every month .. its like sometimes i think about the doctor is the only time where we get to actually meet up with each other and catch up with stuff .. i could say that we could talk about anything and everything .. (but yani and others usually busy with their stuff and no time to catch up with things)

And after the doctors .. atik was having cravings for pizza .. actually she wanted long john silver than she brought up pizza .. so yea .. i was all for it .. i didnt mind .. so we ate pizza just the two of us .. we actually asked yani along but she was busy so yeaa .. haha .. Yea thats bout it .. the day out was refreshing.. ;)!

The pizza we ate ..

Work and Talk of Life !

2007-10-21T08:32:00.001+08:00

Yesterday day at work was cool .. meet up with everyone again and so happy to see them also ... Meet up with my aunt and mom after work cause my mom wanted to go bugis to get her watch that was getting fix .. her clans at bugis free repairs and everything hahaha .. than i wanted buy some stuffs also .. so yap ..

Meet lots of people at bugis BHG last time known as seiyu ... the familiar cashiers .. and staffs ... wishing selamat hari raya blabla haha .. After walking around and buying my stuffs and her stuffs! Lol meet up with my favourite aunt ... and her family of course ... than we decided go east coast and eat satay and stuffs.. and my mom say whatever .. anything haha and im like all for it so yeaa .. So we went there ... than while i was off with my aunt to buy food with the kids .. my mom was talking to my uncle-in-law about my dad and blablabla and how to get separated and stuff ... I wanted to tell her that after all that she will still have me but somehow it didnt came out haha!

Well working later today again .. haha .. sure gonna have fun!

Well .. it happen again this morning ... that scumbag didnt come home again .. and my mom kept calling again .. and she didnt sleep again .. sighh ... i dunno why shes so persistent.. i just wish she could move on happily ... that scumbag dont even care bout us .. and cherish what he have .. my mom kept calling but he hang up as usual than when answer also start shouting at my mom and blabla .. and all she does is say "please come home la" blablabla and always give in .. i just feel so furious with everything of how shes handling everything and how that scumbag treats her .. ARGHH!! Lols .. Well just hope in time .. the right thing happens ..

How was the 1st Week of School

2007-10-19T23:29:00.000+08:00

1st week of school gone like that ... seems so fast .. and truthfully i dun understand a shyt im studying god ! haha im not even in school mood yet .. well hopefully i will get the hang of everything in time .. Citec was fine the night class except for the part where the dumb thing move to dunno where .. and networking craps dunno what mr lam teaching la right .. haizzz!! Lol ..

Anywayz reconciliation of friends have already been made ... I cherish and never have i tot of being anti of anyone .. I tot you wouldnt say a word but hey u did at a later time than i expected that is .. and i make up the plan and hope it would be an ongoing one .. What happen cant be undone and what i could do was to salvaged what was left .. haha ;)

Anywayz gonna be working tmrw .. kinda looking forward to it .. although i been so lazy lately arghh slacking at home is so heaven haha! But i still want money in my pocket since im not in good terms with the scumbag at home -.-"! haha!!

Wahaha school starts!

2007-10-16T15:16:00.000+08:00

Hi people!! Woohooo school starts .. Riteee .. Seems ok .. Not quite in the school mood yet ... feeling so lazy and not up to studying .. first lesson was wth .. 8am in the morning on monday 15/10 and had to calculate bout subnets .. Dohhh blank brain .. not functioning .. Hahaha ...

Oh well .. looking forward to go to work on saturday again .. miss everyone over there ... and maybe sch comes later when my mood really arises ;)!

The song ! Tattoo by Jordin Sparks

2007-10-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

Tattoo - Jordin Sparks

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later I get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you (I'll always have you)

Sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I've gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you (I'll always have you)

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do, oh

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken (yeah)
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction (don't look back)
I loved you once needed protection (no, no)
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I can't waste time so give it a moment (i can't waste time)
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I've done (no need to worry)
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction (don't you ever look back)
I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I can't waste time so give it a moment (i can't waste time)
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I've done (no need to worry)
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction (don't you ever look back)
I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

One of the memorable Days !

2007-10-10T04:01:00.000+08:00

=)

Today is one of the most memorable days of my life .. although i wish it could be everyday or it would have lasted longer haha .. I met up with yani and atik again to eat sakura at Simei as planned .. But than someone special got added to the meeting .. Damn miss the person so much .. haha .. actually didnt know i miss the person so much till i met the person la .. how ironic is that .. Oh well .. had the time of my life .. thanks man for the jokes and all haha .. although waiting for yani at sakura was like more than 1 hr .. we had fun chattin and catching up ..

After that .. met Has than waiting for sie than met sie too .. Haha damn havent seen u guys for so long .. nice meetin again ;)!! After all that .. All went home and i went to meet my mom at paya lebar .. to buy my baju kurung with her .. we only buying for myself and hers .. cause my dad is whatever oh well .. Spend quite a lot on it .. u know my mom haha .. expensive taste .. oh well .. anywayz still waiting for my pay so can help her with our expenses that are so darn expensive hahaha !!

Hope get pay sooon darnn if not gonna call them !! LOL anywayz finally i love it today! Only one thing was left missing .. I wish i hugged that person .. miss the person -.- lols .. how dramatic .. no la im ok ;)! Hope could meet the person again ;)!

My two off days..

2007-10-03T03:17:00.000+08:00

Im feeling so relaxed .. getting my 2 off days from work haha .. last month only off for 4 days out of 30 days .. for now to be off 2 days a week is like really relaxing and weird at the same time haha .. but it was a fresh start for today ... met up with yani and atik again to break my fast .. at Geylang Bazaar .. than we went walking around as usual ... it was fun .. this year really quite a few times i go down there .. unlike last few years .. didnt even bother to go down there haha ...

Hari raya coming .. and my long off day of 8th oct to 19th oct .. would start and in between hari raya on the 13th and on the 15th school starts ... so yeaa .. havent buy my baju kurung yet .. waiting for my mom ... and i dunno what to expect this year hari raya .. due to my dad and stuff so yaa .. see what happens when it comes yap .. Other than that .. gonna be cleaning the house and makeover my room and stuff ... Lots of things in mind .. haha not sure if its gonna be done as its easier said than done haha ;)!

Anywayz .. been thinking a lot .. not sure why i like to think so much and not just live life happy go lucky haha .. thinking of the future ... sometimes scares me ... how everything gonna go .. whats in store for me .. and stuff .. and my mom .. what if shes no longer around and stuff ... Guess i should handle it one by one when time comes and hopefully everything would be alright ... :)!

Hmph .. memories will always be in me .

2007-10-01T01:30:00.000+08:00

Hah .. havent been bloggin ... tired .. been working endlessly as usual .. Gonna be off on tues and weds though 2nd and 3rd oct .. than i will be having off day from 8th oct to 19th oct haha!! Weee .. gonna rest before hari raya how cool right ... Than they dont let me quit .. they want me to work weekends .. and i say alright ... after hari raya and school start that is ...

Anywayz the thought of working weekends would be kinda cool ... would have money in my pocket every month so it wont be so bad .. and im use to everyone there .. got close to most of them haha ;)!!

And right its the middle midst of fasting month .. im not gonna make everything as a hoohaa .. im just feeling off ... some people arent behaving like a human being although its fasting month u know .. I cant believe someone can be so ruthless to not face up to something that already happen and make up lots of joke scenes and craps .. if ur not gonna return me my stuff fine .. have the guts to say it .. or have the courtesy to keep me inform if u REALLY gonna give it back or something .. I totally give up .. Just my luck i even befriended such a person .. Over 2k plus down the drain .. u can keep it and get lost .. and trust me not a word seriously ... I give up and im not gonna say much here .. cause i respect every single human being and think about their feelings not like you!

Three Days Grace - Never Too Late

2007-10-01T00:30:00.001+08:00

Three Days Grace - Never Too Late

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late (It's never too late)
It's not too late
It's never too late

My grandfather's birthday !!

2007-09-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

Wooot !!! HAhaha ... I got off today .. thank god .. they wouldnt let me off again but i made some noise and they let me .. finally get to go to a fine and full family gathering !! Love it cause i miss being among family members ;)!

Ok its my grandfather's birthday !! Month of september .. Lots of family members bday .. My grandma .. 4th .. me 17th than my grandpa 23rd .. and additional my sis-in-law 18th! Than next up is october ... my bro 8th .. my favourite aunt 17th !! =)!!

Ok i had a fun time so let the pictures do the talking ;)!

Lets start with the birthday cake !! My aunt made it all by herself !! Damn it was yummy !! Chocolate sponge cake with white chocolate ;)!

My grandpa cutting his cake ;)!!

Before the cutting of cake and everything .. i bring down the kids to play the firework thingy dunno how to say ... hahaha !

The pictures of the coolest family members on my mom side.. I love all of them !! The kids cant wait to take the cake haha!

Working !! hmphh!!

2007-09-21T01:47:00.000+08:00

Just realise how fast time pass by ... Just seem like yesterday holiday just started but hey its already a month plus gone ... And i have already worked for a month plus haha ... Kinda scary when u think of it .. Going down the road .. of how time passes so fast .. and the next thing u know ur already 40 .. or watever haha ..

It could only be a dream if i can only stay at one moment where nothing changes at all .. but its impossible because everyone changes and grow .. thats life .. =P!

Looking forward to sunday .. my grandfather's birthday 23rd sept .. Gonna go my aunt's house again meet all the kiddies .. and maybe celebrating my birthday also cause they hadnt celebrate it =P! Lol wishful thinking zaini .. dont be greedy ur birthday is over =P!! Lols !!

2nd part of my birthday!

2007-09-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

Today my birthday and my off day! 2nd part of my birthday haha ... meet up with my secondary sch frens to break my 'fast'! At city plaza near paya lebar Arnold's! I turned up late sorry am so tired been working haha!

Anywayz we ate like our normal routine every year! Than we walk around the bazaar and buy more food .. than let the pictures do the talking ;)!

The food we ordered .. Well just the whole chicken and the fries and stuff .. Didnt took mine haha i ate fish and chips =P!

My small bday cake from them! Thanks u all! Made a wish too ;) haha!

A jigsaw puzzle birthday message from them! haha!

Lastly 20 yrs old me haha!

Happy 20th birthday to myself!

2007-09-17T03:33:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF haha =P

Im already 20 ... haha ... not sure if thats suppose to be a good thing or bad thing =P!! But oh well young at heart =)! Birthday for me is a reminder for me to start my life all over again and let all the past events all erased and gone with!
I wont be reminded of all the unhappy craps that happen and i know the world is round so why make myself unhappy =P!

Anywayz some pictures earlier after work went to eat at swensens with my bro and mom .. It was my bro's treat for my birthday .. and also my sis-in-law .. Mine is 17th sept and hers is 18th sept ;)!!

The birthday cake !!

Lols what she wanna grab ar !

Engross eating!

Hmphh!! Fasting month coming!

2007-09-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

Wooo thursday is the start of fasting month .. hahaha .. The people at work were saying .. wah seh u so thin already fasting month become bones haha .. Blahh hahaha!! Years of fasting so use to it already ;)!!

Anywayz .. just something i have to say about living in singapore .. Seems like living in singapore doesnt seem like having a life lols .. well practically not like other countries where they dont have to work and work just to get money in their pocket ... Try imagine a normal singaporean who work everyday ... and the only free time they have is sleep than the next morning wake up work again .. endless boring life of sleep and work and weekends/off days laziness of going out so sit at home .. Blehh !! Hmphh!! And money money ... -.- Work so hard just for a few dollars .. and u spend it in just one second ... how terrible life seems hahaha ..

hmphh my life as it is now ..

2007-09-10T01:19:00.000+08:00

A number of things coming up ... My special day for once hope it gonna be great though i dont expect much ... just looking forward to it being around family and friends ... than results on 19th .. hope it not gonna be that bad i still want my 3 pointer haha .. And not forgetting fasting month.. wonder how i gonna eat alone during fasting month haha .. so not used to it although alone at home is different than being outside so yaa .. crowded and stuff .. hmph!

Well .. somethings remains unchanged .. what i gone through this year have totally changed of how i view things and leading my life already ... Could say im disappointed to have come across some people ... but guess thats life .. u meet some nice ones and bad ones .. u get to know them for who they really are .. Im fine to be facing craps people adding problems to my life and stuff guess i chose it to be that way .. i let it happen .. just have myself to blame for actually caring about other people craps right .. be more self centred and selfish haha ..

Met a lot of cool people at work .. all teaching me ruthless stuff haha ... Been reminded over and over not to be so nice in life .. people take advantage of it .. I get it .. for years people been telling me .. but cant change for who i am ya .. Im alright just the way it is .. but there's always a limit .. ;)!

Chances are given ... and im talking to the one very person right now .. I know it was an accident .. even if it were ... u should have the guts to talk to me normally and not let others talk for you .. And i hate empty promises .. if u cant get it done tell me straight up dont keep promising and giving me false hope .. Thats fucking retarded ... Sigh .. lets just say its disappointing to even face such crap event in life ..

Havent been bloggin dont have time =P!

2007-09-05T03:20:00.000+08:00

Lols .. whats up people .. holidays .. who working .. who rotting .. who whatever??

Haha for me busy working ... can say tired but not so bad .. 2nd september on sunday i couldnt get off cause OG was having sales .. and my grandma had a gathering for her birthday which is going to be on the 4th september .. Happy birthday grandma!! haha .. Not sure how old she gonna be also .. anywayz i couldnt turn up so i came on the 3rd .. damn i miss all those kiddies and of course my grandma.. my aunt and everyone .. So long never see them !! haha .. so yaa .. thats about it .. been busy working .. and kinda broke .. Waiting for pay !! Lots of rubbish to settle .. ;)!

Pictures below of Aqil and Jazlina! I cant believe .. my aunt eldest daughter Nurliyana gonna be 10 yrs old .. Muhammad Aqil - 5 yrs old .. Jazlina - 3 yrs old ..

Tell her want take picture her finger sign of taking picture as usual !

Blehh can't deny it cute!

Aqil ask to take a picture of him with mouth open -.-" !! lols !

2 weeks of work already!

2007-08-31T00:09:00.000+08:00

Woot .. I cant believe i been working for 2 weeks already .. And im waiting for my pay haha !! Yippee can spend .. haha and save some ..

Work looking so much fun despite the security .. my old friends from seiyu known as (BHG) now some got transfer over to OG orchard with me woohoo .. yay im not so bored anymore haha .. and the current staffs are all nice also .. Loving work .. earning money and having fun at the same time ...!!

Haha .. and OG gonna have offer starting tmrw their (45th Anniversary) .. haha billabong stuff got discounts all of us (staffs) reserved most of them already .. we so badd haha! Woohoo thats the fun of working ..

woot just want to blog..

2007-08-22T00:03:00.000+08:00

Work been great .. people there quite nice !! and im getting use to everything .. even the supervisor ask me if any of my friends want to work ... damn i like the job she offering man .. i wish i could work like that .. lols .. just between me and the people i will be asking if they wanna work =x !! haha .. but damn !! Im so jealous of who gonna work but surely whoever it is must accompany me go eat !! lols =x

Anywayz carrie underwood got a new song !! My favourite american idol singer right after kelly clarkson !!

Carrie underwood - So small

Yeah, Yeah

What you got if you ain't got love
The kind that you just want to give away
It's ok to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith

Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem
So small

It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big at the time
It's like a river that's so wide it swallows you whole
While you're sitting around thinking about what you can't change

And worrying about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, and when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem
So small, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And then you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh, it sure makes everything else seem
So small

Yeah, yeah

2nd day of work!

2007-08-20T13:28:00.000+08:00

Haha yesterday was my 2nd day of work and today im off thank god .. whole week of last week was madness schooling mon to fri .. and straight away sat and sun was working didnt rest at all !! Damn tired !! lols ..

Anywayz yesterday right after work my bro and my mom was walking around orchard so they waited for me with my niece !! Damn havent seen her for so long so big already =P!!

So below some pictures of her!!

1st day working at OG!

2007-08-18T23:23:00.002+08:00

Lols .. the day started going to work .. Damn unlucky raining so heavily and me being blur couldnt find where the fuck is OG orchard haha! Drenched wet like an idiot ... still couldnt find the place .. finally found it than cant find the staff entrance .. good thing the supervisor was nice haha .. Damn .. OG quite sucks also thats why everyone tell me dont work there .. and a lot of promoters doesnt want to work there .. Guess why ?? Cant bring in ur handphone and wallet dunno what their lame reason is but oh well .. And the bright side .. Lots of eurasian customers and tourists ...

So yap yap my card to slide in and slide out and my badge below haha! Oh well 2 months .. so all i will think of is money :P !!

The song and everything else!

2007-08-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

Woohoo ... as u all know .. its the end of FYPJ yay! haha although everything wasnt that great (the presentation and project) but im so glad that its over .. !! To everyone !! Have a nice holiday haha! Although i already plan how im gonna spend mine .. as soon as tmrw comes i will start working at OG Orchard haha.. Hopefully everythings goes fine although i am kinda worried right now cause im new to the place and not knowing anyone but im sure i will get over those little stuff in a heartbeat! Been kinda money minded lately wanna buy lots of stuff ;)!

Than school will reopens also back to all the mugging and stuff. I cant wait though .. i actually miss studying and sit inside of a class how Could that even BE Zaini!! haha..

Anywayz .. just kinda finished watching Ghost Whisperer just now and the song just caught me u know .. It was really nice .. maybe u guys should watch the Youtube music video below or just wait to hear the song on my blog to load !! Here's the lyric ;) followed by the video ..

“Running Away” (by Midnight Hour)

Don’t lie and say that it’s okay
It’s all right if there’s nothing more to say
So, I’m running away
I’m leaving this place
Yeah, I’m running away,
I’m running away

Don’t tell me I’m the one to blame
It’s too late for you to make me stay
(No, I won’t stay)
So, I’m running away
I’m leaving this place
Yeah, I’m running away,
I’m running away

I’m faster than you can follow me
From this lonely place
And farther than you can find me
I’m leaving, yeah, I’m leaving today!

And I, I’ll never let you find me
I’m leaving you behind with your past
No, I won’t look back,
And I, don’t wanna hear your reasons
Don’t wanna hear you tell me why I should stay
And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say
When I say I can’t stay
And I, I’m moving on from this place
I’m leaving and I won’t wait
When I’m running away!

I’m running away
I’m leaving this place
Yeah, I’m running away
I’m running away…

Haha Pictures nothing better to do !!

2007-08-08T16:59:00.000+08:00

Alright got nothing to do .. So Boring !! Lazy to finish up my project let me just blog nonsensical pictures throughout the week!

Gummy Bears Lining Up Hahaha!!

Whose Feets Are Those?!?! Definitely the brown white slipper SMELL !!! lols ;)!

Why the burger got someones name?? haha .. nothing better to do!

Bored at home .. open the transformers movie combo thingy and make them LOLS!

Favourite Wantan From PUNCAK!! YUMMY!!!!!

Lols Pulut Hitam and Ice Jelly cocktail!! Say pulut hitam nice than never finish seh somebody .. Than 2 people right eating ice jelly cocktail can keep laughing cause of Jelly drop on the floor and waiting for people to step it.. We siao ;)!
People passby us .. than one girl can say EH right in front of them cause someone step the jelly already than the passerbys stare at us like WAT?!? HAhaha really funny man!

Koufu Indian Mee Goreng YUMM!! but i think the Mama a bit deaf and blur I say no veggie STILL GIVE!!! but nvm i ate it still nice!! haha!!

Haha Lunch At Koufu!

2007-08-01T14:48:00.000+08:00

Im gonna blog again cause im bored and kinda sick of FYPJ although project gonna be done soon!! Me, iqa and ais went to eat at koufu .. I ate indian mee goreng and iqa ate mee kuah .. As for aisyah she dont like chilli and whatsoever she ate mee rebus haha! Than we saw the chicken rice stall and we have never eaten from there before so we decided to buy one plate and share .. !! Haha below is the outcome of the finished food!

Haha Eat finish and see whats next ;)!

Woot!! haha ..

Wahahha me and iqa attack the ice kacang!

Water droplets from the ice kacang cause the middle part of the ice was too hard!

Me and aisyah favourite sushi!! Its called (Kani Mayo)..

Back blogging ;)!

2007-08-01T09:33:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps haha im back ;)!! Sorry havent been bloggin for so long .. Guess its my turn to suffer the phase where every of my stuff gets spoilt .. Oh well not making any noises just facing towards the fact that things can get spoilt .. So yaa my com got spoilt than my memory card on my phone got weird up oh well .. Bought a new 2gb memory card for my phone already so its alright still can hear songs in the bus haha ..

Oh well enough of things getting spoilt .. Back to my past days .. I been good and alright ;)! Below some pictures ... Haha My niece picture i dont know why it become out of color but can see the face good enough right .. And yaa im gonna be an uncle for the second time .. They scanned the baby and its gonna be a girl again .. haha .. Cool right .. I dunno??

Picture of my niece .. (out of color due to transfer between phones duno why?!?!)

A big prawn i eat on one of the days haha !! Big right.. and it cost 7 dollars for one crazy!!

Ok releasing my secret haha! My favourite pillow ("Bantal BUSUK")!! .. The left side is my 19yrs old favourite pillow .. gonna throw it away after today i guess .. or not haha! The new one on the right side!! Small pillows for me ok cause im small hahaha!!

Oh yeaa and that time the ch 8 stars came down to film the hey gorgeous and thats one of the pictures it was nice to see them face to face ..

Oh and thats all i guess gonna blog again soon !! Byeeeee

Origami Madness!

2007-07-24T17:11:00.000+08:00

Today in lab ... so bored .. =/ nothing to do so i just have to blog .. sit in lab .. origami .. go eat also origami .. All BO's fault la !! She and her rabbit .. only know how to do rabbit keep folding same thing over and over!! BORING !! haha ..

Than today did the 10 star pointer nice sia .. see the pictures below and u will see =)!! Other than that suppose to help my partner with java platform project but i dont know nuts about JAVA and im so lazy .. maybe tmrw .. sorry ADA T_T! lols ..

All Crazy origami on my computer!! lols.. Below every side corner of them hahah! Crazy la zaini..

The 10 pointer star on monitor screen without flash ..

with flash ...

6 weird things about me!

2007-07-20T09:50:00.000+08:00

The rules :

1. Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves.

2. People who get tagged needs to write in their blog of their own weird things as well and state the rules clearly.

3. In the end, you'll select 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

SIX WEIRD THINGS ABOUT ME

1. I would laugh for no reason sometime.
2. When i want to do something, i need to have the mood for it.
3. When im alone at home, I would sing and talk to myself.
4. Sometimes i on the tv and it watches itself haha.
5. I wont bathe for a week or MORE unless I GO OUT OF THE HOUSE, HAHA!
6. I walk around looking at the floor MOST OF THE TIME and not straight ahead.

TO BE TAGGED
1. Yani
2. Fazila
3. Iqa
4. Aisyah
5. Samantha
6. Kak Mazrifah

Happy birthday ibu !!

2007-07-20T00:38:00.000+08:00

Haha .. 19th july my mom's birthday a bit late on posting .. But happy 42th b'day IBU !! haha .. So tired this week dont know why .. Feeling really sian with FYPJ suddenly lately .. done my part of the project .. left dont know what parts right .. guess i talk about it already .. Really sian of the fypj because got nothing to do than we cant do what we want and stupid visitors keep coming .. freaking irritating .. than tmrw somemore .. dun know what rubbish people coming to make nyp have a chance to win dunno wat award and they gonna ask us questions on our project and whatever so lame ..

Like most of us say .. Feels like animals in the zoo getting contained in the labs somemore the visitors take pictures and look from outside like what sia !! Maybe worst than animals .. because at least animals in the cage got freedom to do what they want .. we must do what the teachers want .. want play cards .. play games also cannot freak sia!! Arghh !! I WANT MY 2 months break faster !! lols ..

Well since i cant play games or cards right .. i got paranoid over origami .. so here the picture below .. what i folded .. owl, sea lion, butterfly, pigeon, crane and whatevers lol .. tried doing turtle and others mess up .. try again tmrw i guess =P!!! And the bouquet of flowers my aunts gave to my mom! Sunflowers!! haha! Oh ya not forgetting bo's tagged i post it tmrw!!

How im living my life now ..

2007-07-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

I been really lazy to blog .. No apparent reason actually just got a lot to think about .. bout future, family, friends .. A lot of things have been happening this year .. and i kinda havent had a gasp of breath to even have an empty space to breathe in and out and thought about why everythings been going on and stuff ..

But lately past few months .. things been looking up .. thanks to myself and certain events, people that happen .. so yap .. it isnt so bad .. Well haha last week and this week didnt do anything much just did up the fypj project the application is done just need some touchup and the next part of everything there's still quite some time to think over it haha .. Tmrw gonna be watching harry potter at 1am ;)! Bet its gonna be fun due to the timing haha .. Staying out late once in a while could really be fun!

Anywayz just gonna post some funny pictures ... Cause i have nothing much to blog anywayz =P!

Haha my hand got tatooo .. haha no la just sleep on my hand too long pressure on don't know what but it looks cool got cross!! haha i know im lame whats new ;)! And Below Stupid pictures of me, has and sie .. Took 3 of us actually but always when sie in the picture the picture turn out not nice hahaha!! =x

As usual Im back addicted to an old song!

i'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
i don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you

i've
become so numb
i can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
i'm becoming this
all i want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought i would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second i waste is more than i can take

but i know
i may end up failing too
but i know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you

Wooot

2007-07-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

Haha havent been bloggin for quite a while.. Been busy getting ready for project presentation and nowadays when im back home im so lazy to touch the com .. Woah isnt that new hahah!

Anywayz last sunday man .. The coolest movie we went to watch .. Transformers !!! haha .. it was cool la to the max ;)! Well as usual went to buy the popcorn combo than get the card thingy and one set to make a figurine im not even sure what i got for the figurine cause its like so wasted to open it! haha!

Alright thats all i have to blog about i guess .. and FYPJ is rocking .. cool peeps in the lab ;)!

Wee ..

2007-06-28T09:40:00.000+08:00

Next week presentation .. stuff not done yet haha !! No more slacking that much anymore .. or not dead .. nothing to present .. and me being crap in presentations hahaha !!

Anywayz ... Did a quiz thingy elsie send through email and this is my result !!

Hmph just feel like bloggin ..

2007-06-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

Hmph everythings been fine .. project kinda alright .. only that its not really done facing problems ... but guess its fine .. other than that ... everythings the same boring haha ... same routine everyday ... And yeaa the laptop thing is still the same ... i dont wanna talk about it .. the more i go on about it .. the more crap i feel .. haizz ... reasons and reasons .. and i dont know .. sighhh ... alright i dun wanna say anything bad .. lets go on .. haha

Somethings crop up again which become hoohaa in the family ... im always will be the last to know about family stuff guess maybe i couldnt care less but the funny thing is somehow i sure get to know it without even bothering .. my so call "sister" on my dad's side goes to jail cause sell drugs or something ... haha .. yeaa big news hoo haa in the family ... the so call havoc crap .. but who cares right ... oh well ..

And im still on my movie marathon .. the only thing that keeps me going ... Transformers and Harry potter ?? Maybe in between when i see something else i would like to watch haha .. but those 2 confirm right ?? Sie say wanna treat me watch transformers 1st july we will see if thats true =P! And of course harry potter is a must watch show =)!

Well thats all i guess! Life still goes on and im still living my dreams ;)!

Boring haha

2007-06-21T11:23:00.000+08:00

Hmphh havent been bloggin haha been slacking and playing too much to even care to blog .. Anywayz late today la .. sian ... oh well .. haha .. Must i remind u guys about the stupid system nahh haha ... Envy those people who sign in by the com !! Never come .. go back early people sign in and sign out for u !! haha ..

Well .. starting to play mahjong in the lab already with the chinese people ahaha .. Loving it ... nice to play =)!! The project alright la ... kind of going on with progress and somewhat not haha mr cheong is very nice helping us with the application so no stress at all ..

Well today .. later on going clinic with atik haha during my lunch break, yay shes driving .. lol .... me drive ... that would still be a dream .. my dream still sleeping haha!! well someday i guess ..

Yeaa thats bout it i guess .. endless rubbish and craps in the lab fun fun fun haha ;)!

Fantastic Four Movie yay!

2007-06-16T11:45:00.000+08:00

Haha hangout yesterday was great and the movie was indeed cool !! U guys need to catch it Fantastic Four : Rise of the silver surfer :)! Haha ... although Spiderman 3 will still be the best .. but fantastic four was great too .. And the whole hangout was great .. Thanks for the nite people!

Lol the notebook from the movie popcorn combo! Had to buy two cause me and has were crazy over it =P My popcorn was half eaten .. and thrown at has hahaha! Alright thats all Nice right the notebook =P!

Gabriel Mann - Remember (Cool Song !!)

2007-06-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

Verse 1
remember, the moment you face
is it all straight ahead or behind you?
or maybe if you look around,
you'll see everythings perfectly clear
picture it all in your mind.

Chours
remember where we are now
open your eyes
take it all in
remember where we are now
this is where your life begins

Verse 2
you feel like your lost in the crowd
watchin life go on without you
well baby, its your turn to shine
everythings starting right here
dont leave this moment behind

[Chours]

dont look away
its the life you choose now believe it
there'll come a day
when you look up and see how good you are with me

remember where you are now
open your eyes
take it all in
remember where you are now
this is where your life begins, ohh

(rememberx4)

remember where we are now
open your eyes
let it begin
remember where we are now
this is where your life begins

ohh, remember
remember
ohh, remember
this is where your life begins

Siannn

2007-06-12T08:37:00.000+08:00

Hmph yesterday watch season 1 Heroes till finish in iqa's lab haha cause lazy to do the fypj project .. lame la the ending -.- .. sighh ... give ending of a season like that shyt ... than season 2 not even out yet .. haha ..

Blehhh i feel like i been printing money like that .. last friday lazy to wait for bus go take cab ... today forgot to set alarm woke up at 7.30am left the house at 8am had to take cab down or late to scan the freaking card ... Darn .. wasting money !!! Oh well .. haha ... Yesterday play around with the xml codings and reading the book .. and it kinda work now .. wooot hahah ... well gonna start doing the proj now laterz ..

FYPJ blehhh

2007-06-11T09:44:00.000+08:00

No fair haha .. the study path people got 2 weeks break ... and we dont even have break .... haizzz so sick of coming to school than need to tap at the freaking webcam ..

On the bright side .. later fypj ends got 2 months break ... yay haha! Than study path .. Hmphh ... So looking forward to it i guess ?!?! lol ... And this friday ... 15th !! HAS !! U say eat dinner and movie right ... Looking forward to it ok .. eat wherever (pizza hut?? Sakura?? Seoul Garden??) .. and Fantastic Four movie .. U guys belanja right ?? haha =P!!!! Wooot ...

Haha funny thing been going on .. the jerk at home keep calling my hp and i always leave it in my room or wherever where i cant see it and its vibrate silent so he been calling quite a few times last week maybe want to buy for me dinner but i didnt see it .. haha ... so he come back always look at me one kind .. he thinks i dont want answer his call haha ... too bad who cares anywayz =P

FYPJ!!!!!!!!!! Need to do but dunno how to do hahaha ... Slacking and playing only blehh =P !

FYPJ!!

2007-06-06T10:28:00.000+08:00

Woot pictures describing my FYPJ life haha ...

Hahah nothing to do decorate the freaking desktop .. and the dumb book we borrow than never use actually must do the application on java platform .. than teacher say week 6 than do .. now must do on windows with xml .. Siann not sure how to do still readin the books !!! hope i understand and do it up soon .. So bo liao now ...

Yesterday the mom was off so she went out whole day and call me that the jerk at home keep making noise so she been walking around alone everywhere ... And she ask me to call her when im going home than she go home i was like ok ... But than yani left her thumbdrive in school so i went to meet her first after searching for her thumbdrive hahaha .. than went to meet my mom spend a little here and there and went home haha !! Alright thats all .. Programming programming the more i dun wan it the more i get it .. Boo .. oh well .. haha !

Hmphh yay!

2007-06-05T11:42:00.000+08:00

Alright .. the jerk at home started to talk to me again .. Although its weird all of a sudden he talk to me after everything ... Oh well .. his normal routine ... do something crap than after that act like nothing happen .. than go about the whole routine again .. haizz whatever right .. just follow the flow ..

Haha alright the company called and woohoo finally got my final pay although its not full ... got money in my pocket at least .. Hmphh the laptop thing still not settled ... the mom endless questioning although i told her the truth what happened.. And im in the difficult position .. cant even communicate with the person not sure he avoiding the issue or whatsoever ... haizz .. just wish this problem end soon ... So i dont need to worry anymore ...

Blog more later ;)!

About FYPJ!

2007-06-02T15:34:00.000+08:00

Hahaha .. Alright Fypj!! A week has gone and it totally feels like nothing =P! Really sure is relaxing hahahaa!! Maybe cause i havent start on the project yet so yaa ... Only been slacking ... and walking around in all the labs playing games .. chatting and all the rubbish in and out labs to go eat .. and stuff haha!

So lets see first and second day was only briefing from my supervisor Mr Lam Wee Wah hahaha we were making fun of his name on the first day before meeting him ... First lam .. Than go weee .. Than at last Wahhhh .. haha .. alright whatever zaini .. =P! Lol ... Hmphh ok about the project .. its the same as what Sam did .. !! Lol .. And yeaa the supervisor is damn nice .. Although kind of two lecturers in charge of us .. The Mr. Lam is only guiding us on the Wireless Cisco Stuff and Mr. Cheong is guiding us on the software of VB .. and J2me programming stuff ..

Alright la .. We done the poster .. the babbling made up 1st Week progress and The gantt chart copying from sam's haha! So yeaa .. monday .. and tuesday all the briefing and nonsense than napha the 2.4km trial run .. was like damn shyt .. cause i realise how unfit i was .. felt like dying after only running 4 rounds haha! Didnt even finish it .. damnnn .. oh well .. than wednesday i think slack .. not sure what i do also its like the whole week just gone like that hahaha!! Kinda cool but kinda scary at the same time .. cause basically i havent done anything ..

Well than thursday was Fun fun fun .. holiday .... and friday was like i dont know what i did also .. All i know was .. going out for lunch at Ang mo kio and taking our own sweet time hahaaa !! Oh well thats it .. Seriously im enjoying myself ! Fypj Rulesss .... but than .. week 6 presentation and stuff coming up .. cannot have too much fun =P!

Wee end of attachment and early sat =)

2007-05-26T15:22:00.000+08:00

What a relieve .. attachment finally over haha.. Was really touched of how everyone was so nice to me on my last day haha! They made a party gathering with everyone to say farewell to me .. ordered pizza and kfc just for me ... Haha so cool =)! Sure to miss them such cool people ...

Well today ... early start in the morning .. 7 am already meet atik she was waiting for me at the bus stop already haha ... we went out to clinic ... than after that went to watch pirates of caribbean haha .. I wasnt a fan of it .. didnt even watch the first and second one .. but it was kinda cool and funny movie .. =)! Anywayz that was the only show we could watch .. haha! The most funny thing was stepping into TM And century square at 9 in the morning haha and every store was close ... and we catched the movie at 10am .. who watch movie so early hahaa!! Oh well thats it .. =)!

Yea .. Jordin Sparks Won !! =)! American idol 07!

2007-05-25T00:56:00.000+08:00

Woot winner of American Idol Season 6 Year 2007 Jordin Sparks!! Yay haha .. I was so right when i wanted her to win from the start! She rocks =)! Her new single she sing beautifully and very nice lyrics! ;)!

This Is My Now

There was a time I packed my dreams away
Living in a shell, hiding from myself.
There was a time when I was so afraid
I thought I'd reached the end.
Baby, that was then.
But I am made of more than my yesterdays.

This is my now,
And I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can't believe the love I see.
My fear's behind me,
Gone are the shadows and doubt.
That was then.
This is my now.

I had to decide.
Was I gonna play it safe?
Or look somewhere deep inside,
Try to turn the tide.
Find the strength to take that step of faith?

This is my now,
And I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can't believe the love I see.
My fear's behind me,
Gone are the shadows and doubt.
That was then.
This is my now.

I have a courage like never before, yeah.
I settled for less, but I'm ready for more.
Ready for more…

This is my now,
And I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can't believe the love I see.
My fear's behind me,
Gone are the shadows and doubt.
That was then.
This is my now,
And I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can't believe the love I see.
My fear's behind me,
Gone are the shadows and doubt.
That was then.
This is my now.
This is my now.

Haha the joke during the final 2 performance round .. Check this out ..

Haha melinda facial reaction was funny when jordin was singing her last song =P!

Im stronger i know it ..

2007-05-22T22:40:00.000+08:00

Well i feel like im getting the hang of everything .. Guess i took a real turn on how i see things and my attitude towards everything ... Which is good thing for myself i guess .. But more of the couldnt care less attitude .. but more on the positive side i suppose haha .. oh well

A few hrs ago .. the most ridiculous thing just happen but i got nothing to comment i guess but i just dont understand what she's feeling .. the scumbag wants to go out and u keep asking him where he's going and he say its non of ur business and u ask if he's coming home and he say he will call if he comes home than so be it .. he doesnt care about you thats how selfish he is ... let him be la .. why the hell u get so upset over it ... And i really have no idea what to do .. for pits sake .. im ur son ... I should be asking u questions .. not the other way round .. U cried in front of me saying "Ibu sedih..la adik".. So what u expect me to do? I already beat him up and he already beat me up the other day .. What else do u want .. And all i did was tell her why ur being so nice when he dont even care .. whats the use ... she dont get it .. she can ask me what i want her to do .. its her life .. and she asking me what i want her to do .. Anywayz i already told her what needs to be done .. but shes not doing anything also ... Im in the stage where everything is like what the hell should i do .. damn i just wish someone would just help me ... or something i feel so helpless .. first the laptop i dont even know what to do about it now and she dont even know yet .. and now this .. Arghh !! Im so frustrated !! But i know its just growing up and learning and whatever .. and im handling it .. i just i dont know sighh .. oh well ..

Enough of that :)! Its up to me to make myself happy and i run my life so why make myself miserable life still goes on ;)! haha !

Oh lets talk about the Anything and Whatever Drink u guys heard of it right haha .. especially the advertisements so lame sia ... The one where the dad was dying and he say i will give u whatever .. than he was refering to the can drink than he died haha so lame right. Anywayz listen u guys the drink is actually really anything or whatever its like they choose the drink for u cause u already choose Anything or Whatever haha .. the radio says .. the drink either would be coke, green tea, ice lemon tea or whatever ... so yaa really anything or whatever haha! funny right .. so its like they pick u a drink and its random .. Kinda cool and innovative haha!

Kk thats all i have to talk about i suppose ... Not sure if im looking forward to friday or not its the last day of attachment .. everyones at work is counting down for me and disturbing me haha ... and my LO coming down to talk to my boss hopefully everythings goes fine ... alright nite people!

Life as it is now ..

2007-05-21T12:01:00.000+08:00

4 more days after today till attachment is over .. Looking forward to it ?!?!
Maybe not .. Fypj coming up next with no holiday damn no chance to relax .. at least one week also dont have?!
Haha ... oh well hope good supervisor .. good team mates other than that i going full speed ahead to give my all!

So anywayz .. last friday done the ipp report finish and showed the boss and he sign all my stuff and grade my overall performance .. Well all Good .. Good enough for me haha =P! Was suprise of how nice he was. Well seems like its all over but 4 more days .. not sure what im doing also .. surfing net and stuff acting like im doing research but i dont know what im doing also haha!

Well well .. the report ... i show my boss it and he said nothing bout it .. and i send my LO for vetting and this is what he replied...

"Dear Ruzaini

Do not mention anything about lack of knowledge, attribute it to lack of time and resource constraints as the factor.
Since your work is not completed, do a hand over document, stating what has been done, and wat are the work that is outstanding.
If it is half completed, please document down what is completed and what needs to be followed up. This document should be passed to your Supervisor so that the next intern can take care of it.

Remember, do a proper handover session to ur boss, or whoever is best to take over your work. "

In my heart .. what the hell right .. i told my boss i dont know how to do it and he was ok with it and now my LO saying otherwise .. and my boss didnt even ask me to document anything .. so must i or must i not ? Haizz .. but i did make a document of progress on what i done .. so if they ask i guess i just show them that ..! No big deal haha ... Lots of miscommunication shit .. NYP Sux! Attached students anyhow and give us hell .. and anything happens its all our fault ..! How crap! Oh well..
Alright so attachment is going to be over soon .. Kinda so call looking forward to fypj ... Laptop issue is not settled ... More shyts happening at home ... Im hanging on! ;)!
"He hit my mum .. It feels so good to hit him .... he got all the bruises on his face and i think he deserves it .. a few cuts on my forehead and blueblacks on my left arm and back is not that bad .. I thought u said u could beat me to death if u could .. why not? I swear damn jerk u live to regret what u did to me over something u wont admit that u did was wrong till u got so ego and aggressive to start hitting us! Pure jerk! And Whatever my mom is thinking im so hating her .. Endless crap ... shes still giving in to him!"

I've changed and im gonna live another day, month and year and no one is gonna stop me except for myself .. So full speed ahead =)!

Miracle ..

2007-05-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

Its taken much too long
to get it right
Would it be so wrong
to maybe find someone
A miracle

And all you really need
is everything you could never be
And so you'd give it all
for a miracle

Chorus:
Is there a trace
inside her face
of a lonely miracle?
And so you wait
and lie awake
for a lonely miracle

You never really know
what it is --
not until it goes
And if it comes again
it's a miracle

But what you miss is love
and everything below and up above
And could she bring it all --
a miracle?

Chorus (1x)

All you wanted was a
All you needed was a miracle
A miracle
And all you wanted was a
All you needed was a miracle
A miracle

Its taken so long
to get it right
Could it be so wrong
to maybe find someone
A miracle

Chorus (2x)

A miracle
A miracle

The truth is out ...

2007-05-14T14:52:00.000+08:00

Alright the truth is out ... Seriously i dunno how to react ... Firstly, cause u lied to me through ur mouth for 1 month to me .. on the other hand u didnt expect it to happen la .. neither do i oh well ... but since it happen already and u say ur gonna get a new one for me .. Im having problems processing or picturing everything that have happen already also .. because im not sure what im gonna tell my mom since the thing havent finish paying yet and stuff .. Sighh and how can you and kak nur get a new one .. just like that how bout ur daily expenses .. I seriously dunno what to do !! ... Sighh ... Oh well hope i get through this hurdle!

And seriously im through with all the so call shyt people .. I realise its good sometimes that u know people for who they really are .. Some people are plain jerks and assholes haha! Siapa Terasa TOO BAD! But those who are so full of themselves and dont feel that im talking about them .. They seriously need an attitude adjustment haha.. On the other hand, some people are really great .. U know who u guys are .. those who been there for me .. and i look up to when i have problems .. Thanks a lot for hearing me out and everything .. U have no idea how much i really appreciate it!

Nothing Better to do Part 2 .....

2007-05-11T17:05:00.000+08:00

Ok my 2nd rubbish post today sorry due to my weird major boredom TODAY haha! The picture above is just one of the rubbish kiddish crap i been messing and scribbling when im bored and paranoid haha! I think if i kept everything that i thrown in the rubbish bin and some in my file now all the months/weeks of scribbling .. Maybe there's major paper craps everywhere haha!! IM WASTING PAPER!! but who cares =P! Ok thats all ...

Nothing better to do ..

2007-05-11T15:29:00.000+08:00

Alright i got nothing to do in the office .. Im on strike .. sick of everything .. haha ... guess maybe next week i got a better motivation .. 2 WEEKS LEFT !!!!! Thanks everyone who's been talking to me keeping me company i greatly appreciate it and further more those who actually listen to my constant crap ..

Sorry i know im going crazy haha! And Krystal ur the bestest mummy friend sister whatever online buddy haha! =P!! Love u so muchh!

Ok .. So the $1 Dollar coins above .. haha.. i didnt realise i had 6 of them well quite a lot for me .. cause i hate to keep coins .. i use to remember all my coins i gave yani to keep :P haha! guess last time she got rich thanks to me over coins haha! so from top to bottom ... 1988,1989,1990,1995,1997,2006 haha! REally shows the color difference sia!! 2006 is so super shiny and 1988 so super dull haha! Ok im crazy thats all =P! CAUSE IM SO FREAKING BORED!!

Haha funny selling imaginary friend?

2007-05-09T17:17:00.000+08:00

Lol .. Funny thing i heard on the radio !! People selling an imaginary friend on EBAY! And over 30 people have bidded already and the highest bid so far cost like $4,000 singapore dollars HAHA!

Here's a picture of the imaginary friend ..

CLICK HERE to see the ebay bidding!

Remember to read the comments below at the website bidding page funny shyt!

Lol ... bored like hell

2007-05-08T17:06:00.000+08:00

Hey hey everyone here i am Spelling out the word B - O - R - E - D ! lol ..
How pathetic am i ... like totally been reading jokes and surf net today .. I cant do the thing .. i think i given up trying already sighh oh well .. Not forgetting the mp3 songs on my phone haha to keep me awake and the radio 98.7 FM man !! haha ..

Oh and ya i won something on a game of it last thursday .. The game "Did he just say that!?!"

Lol .. if u guys hear the radio that is .. it happens every weekdays at 6pm .. They say i won .. Spiderman 3 cd soundtrack and 2 tickets to The Swimming Instructor Play?? No idea what play is it oh well just waiting to get the gifts when they arrive in my mailbox =P!

Oh and ya .. there's this so call Amazing Race kinda thing happening in singapore .. The N95 wireless adventure .. Nokia.com is having go there and check it out and click this so call logo below i didnt link it lazy go there urself if u wanna sign up haha!

I heard its like testing people how well they know singapore ..
1st prize is $7000 and 2 sets of N95 phones.
2nd prize is $5000 and 2 sets of N95 phones.
3rd prize is $3000 and 1 set of N95 phone.

Haha im sure about the 1st prize but i think i got the figures wrong for the 2nd and 3rd =P! Who cares i was like woah cool prizes but i dont think im that kind of person to take part =P! So if u guys wanna take part ... Sign up ends by next week! And the thing happening on 26th may saturday .. How cool right after attachment and fypj shit is over! LOL..

Ok im done talking rubbish now im gonna find stupid things to do until 6 so i can get outta here!! B-O-R-I-N-G! <-- janice favourite word hahaha!

Spiderman Sountrack song ..

2007-05-07T02:14:00.000+08:00

Snow patrol - Signal fire (Spiderman 3 Soundtrack)

The perfect words never crossed my mind
Cause there was nothing in there but you
I felt every ounce of me, screaming out
But the sound was trapped deep in me

All I wanted, just sped right past me
But I was rooted fast to the earth
I could be stuck here for a thousand years
Without your arms to drag me out

There you are, standing right in front of me (x2)
All this fear falls away, you leave me naked
Hold me close,
cause I need you to guide me to safety

No, I won't wait forever (x2)

In the confusion, and the aftermath
You are my signal fire
The only resolution and the only joy
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes

There you are, standing right in front of me (x2)
All this fear falls away, you leave me naked
Hold me close,
cause I need you to guide me to safety

There you are,
standing right in front of me (x2)
All this fear falls away, you leave me naked
Hold me close,
cause I need you to guide me to safety

No, I won't wait forever (x3)

Sighh ..

2007-05-07T00:43:00.000+08:00

The life ... described by people .. and what i see it as ..

Life should be what you want it to be and how u make it ..
No one says life was fair ..
Everyone have the chance to make the choices in life ..
Everything are meant to happen its just how life takes its course ..
Its not how bad or how good life goes about its just how people handle it by making it happen ..
There's up and downs in life thats what make the colors in the sky if not it be dull ..

And ya blablabla the list go on about life whatever this and whatever that ..

I been looking at my life whether it was the past .. or the future .. or the present or the whatever ... Im feeling so .. I dont know ... example this year .. Ya right .. the big 2 starting of ur age .. how great .. I thought i could get through with everything and not stuck with my hell of shyt past .. And u know like everyone say .. like my teacher use to say A new year is a new chapter of ur life .. Start it new and fresh .. Sighh .. but this 2007 ... This year .. been a so call total nightmare and crap and seriously whatever .. I dont know how to handle everything .. I didnt expect everything to take a sudden turn and seriously turn me off .. Whats going on .... Whats up .. Why this why that .. But i know im not suppose to question all this .. And maybe im thinking too much .. Its just life taking its course .. and what i need to experience .. and face .. and learn .. and grow .. and stop being pessimistic all the time .. and look at it differently .. I dont know but i really not handling everything thats going on very well .. sighh .. But hanging on ... aha a friend said .. something like ... "Your happy times will come soon or something like that" Haizz im looking forward to that .. but for the time being im fine but just feeling really down ... to be facing some hard times ...

Since im done talking about all the rubbish i wish to say haha .. Im goin to go get ready for bed and hope tmrw would be a better day =)!