Once an egoistic bastard will always stays one ... Screw him .. Never even act his age or be an example as a father .. what the hell ? Its gonna break fast time and he's still sleeping .. doesnt even bother about anyone else .. Totally give up man.. He can rot and be invisible .. so cant be bothered ..

Mess up the house with his birds nonsense and only thinks of himself ... Might as well go move out and stay with birds to be his family..

Brainless idiot .. Fasting month is the month where everyone wake up and get their act together .. but guess he's worst than a devil .. All he thinks is himself and no one else .. why the hell do he even get married and have kids if thats how he gonna act ... Seriously ashamed to have such a father .. Like a song lyric goes ...

There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here

You're falling, you're screaming
you're stuck in the same old nightmare
He's lying, you're crying
there's nothing left to salvage
Kick the door 'cause this is over
Get me out of here

Hi everyone, been ages since i blog ... lazy i guess haha .. totally dead my blog. Have really trying to work out everything thats going on in my life .. But hey who doesnt have problems right ... just feel like pouring out here cause im human .. totally give up and lets just say been keeping mum and holding on inside me for so long and soon i will explode so yeaa ...

Its fasting season already a week of it have already past. Arrghh and the old man at home is so egoistic ... he thinks he's some kind of god. Can't even admit he did something wrong and people are always wrong and he's always right! He even said he could curse us all if he wants to .. Haha wishful thinking man. The funniest thing today is .. i bought some food home to break fast on my own which i assume he wasnt at home but hey at least i bought extra.. and guess what .. I lay down all the food at the living room and just wanna eat myself i thought he was gonna go out and eat .. But hey he just sit there and see me eat ... Why?? to ashamed to eat what i buy ... But hey im not so heartless la .. i still left the food for him.. He needs my mom to come home and tell him .. go and eat la the food .. God!! he think he some small kid or what .. idiot egoistic moron.. Face it la ... U are not fit to be a father already dont need to be so ego and proud.. Why u cant eat what ur son buy?? U need people to say ehh eat la .. Hey but plzz face it up to yourself u idiot .. If you treat people with respect .. it work both ways ...

U even say cause your the father you can do whatever you want .. AS theres a saying everyones human and doesnt mean your the father you got extra powers or shit and doesnt mean everything you do is right and everything we do is wrong .. STOP LIVING YOUR LIFE IN THE PAST IDIOT .. Everyone make mistakes and what happened is already done and over with SO GET OVER IT !! My brother is living his life happily and ur torturing yourself by being stuck in the past .. You dont want to accept that you already have two grand daughters thats your fucking problem but please dont make it difficult for everyone around you.. You wanna screw your own life you can just get lost and leave us ... We will let you .. Just let us go.. Not keep saying we dont listen to you and we dont respect you and throw ur tantrums like some small kid and raising ur voice and finding fault just cause you like it and it satisfies your ego !! Use ur brains a little when u talk!! For a person who is going to reach his fifties you are really childish and immature IM ACTUALLY SAD ?!?! i have such a father.

Fuck this man .. I give up .. If you want me to respect you or however your brain think is right in your own fuck up world guess what .. I give up and i dont give a fuck and get it in your thick skull you didnt fail as a father or a husband ... its because you have never even been one.

Oh yeaa .. if you actually lost your wife and two kids .. dont need to screw up the house with 3 birds which makes lots of noise in the house and trying to care for them. You already lose us ... dont torture living things just cause u feel like it or psychologically trying to get those 3 birds to be ur new family ... Because like last time u bought 5 fishes and before that was few birds and all of them died .. So stop building up ur sins and wake up you stupid old fool.. Try spending your money on your real family for a change or ACTUALLY HELP! and stop making the house in a mess with those stupid birds and make the home a worst place than it already is. A home suppose to be a place where everyone could feel happy and FEEL LIKE A HOME! And now it feels like a jungle with birds making so much noise .. ARGHH !! WHAT IS HE THINKING MAN !! $#$#@%@#$@##@ THATS IT MAN GOT NOTHING TO SAY !!@#@#@