Story of a person ..

A boy havent have much role models to look at or decide to be like who in the near future ... most people get their inspiration from people around them or family members or whatever .. he dunno .. he think he starting to realise that he have been too negative (pessimistic) most of the time than he dun realise the good things around him when they were around ..

He have a brother .. who's leading life assumed by him that its much happier although its hard handling a family at such a young age but he's leading life happier without getting involve in other matters beside his family and not need to think of anything else other than his family .. sometimes he envy his brother for making that step although it was too selfish on his part ...

Now this boy is staying with a retarded dad .. who have no priorities at all or care about his family at all .. and a mom who cares too much of her husband but the husband doesnt care about her at all .. and she's facing money difficulties and all she could turn to is the boy which is her only one left by her side .. she chose to do an easier job and shes earning less but shes not changing her expenses and she keep realising at the last minute she have no money left .. how irresponsible can she get .. and the retarded dad that is her husband dont even bother to give her or his family money ... and be thrifty or spend it on other craps besides his family ... sighh ..

While im typing this .. i feel so sad for the boy .. being stress over his personal problems himself and he's being trap in a family crap which he have to go home to everyday ... I just hope he can hang on really tight and not just fall off anytime ...

The boy just dont understand why his mom need to hold on to such a moronic bastard or keep a husband as inhuman as that .. he dont even compromise .. or think about others .. all he cares is his ego and himself and i dun even know how to describe the boy's father .. its just totally inhuman ... and he dun understand why would any wife hold on to a husband like that and suffer her whole life when she could just break it off and live happier being together with him makes no difference but making her son and her suffer so much ... SIGHHH !!@!#!@$@!#

The boy really gives up ... he have nothing more to say just wish he have someone by his side as a companion ... T_T !!

Hey hey .. havent quite been bloggin nothing to blog about i guess or im just lazy and too tired ...

Life is so boring or so fucked up for me as always .. things at home are as usual ... i totally give up ... or i should say i already been ignoring the shits thats been going on at home so blablabla bout it .. and the other stuffs that have been not so bright .. whatever .. i dun even know what im saying haha .. lets just say i dont see anything bright in my life .. i dun even know wtf to study if i wish to apply for uni or where to proceed in this part of crossroad in my life .. Arghh everythings so fucked up and whatever .. i been trying to look at the bright side but i keep falling down back or stones keep hitting me down again .. Whatever attitude of mine always triumph over me .. thats the way i grow up not bothering or care bout shits and just avoiding it which is so wrong .. Arghh enough of it .. i swear im gonna work things out and straighten everything .. i just need time like i always do .. =)!

Anywayz .. today after work .. or i escape from it .. since i already planned with yani to watch Bride Wars .. been wanting to watch it .. cause anne hathaway is in the show haha .. just love how pure, pretty and lovely she looks ... haha .. anywayz the show was great .. very funny and climax ... bout friendship shit .. was cool =)!

Damn guess what !!

ITS 1st FEBRUARY ALREADY !!

Seriously like a few mins ago of shutting my own eyes .. it was just the start of a new year 2009 now its already february .. Doesn't anyone notice that time passes by so fast or is it just me .. gosh it could be pretty scary! Im gonna be 22 this year >_< damnn!!

Anywayz my weekends been slacking and rotting at home cause im broke and too lazy to go out and when u got no bucks it sucks to go out u know what i mean!

I been crazy over this music artist album .. she sounds cool to me so yeaa ... Rockin along with her songs! Check it out .. its lesley roy ;)!