How do u live in a house every single day and see ur parents quarrel?
How do u sleep at night dreaming everytime u hear they quarrelling u fear that something tragic would happen to your mom ..
How do u go through life every single day wondering if ur mom would be alright ...
How ... how do i do this anymore .. i cant take it ..

Why must i be in such position where i have to see all this shits going on in my life .. why does other people have such normal families and have family time and outings and could be among each other's love .. when all i have everyday is just trap within my sorry plight ...

I give up living a life like this i cant take it anymore .. how i wish i could talk to someone who understands or hear me out ... for once tonight ... i look around and i actually dont got anyone to talk to ... maybe i could talk to a few people but i dont think i wanna waste their time or would they actually care about my shit ... I dont know what im gonna do tmrw .. but i told my aunt im gonna stay there and not come home anymore but i havent decide totally what to do ...

Im feeling so terrible right now i just wish i was erase from this earth ..