Heyy people haha .. havent been bloggin for a while ..
yea so its the week where tests and submission of projs are all like in the same week and time ... i remember last time stress would get to me haha .. but hey this semester is like .. whatever .. try my best and thats it no stressing ...

Lets just wait and see how everything goes right ..

School gonna end .. and part of me cant wait .. cause i kinda am tired of studying already i need a very very long break haha .. on the downside .. i wont get use to not going to school and not meet all classmates and friends .. When the time comes ... hopefully i would say i remember and miss everyone i met in poly for the 3 yrs i was in .. and may all that i know keep in touch ;)!

Sometimes i dont recognize myself anymore ... Who am i what have i become .. i know i have changed sometimes i dunno what im doing anymore or what im thinking ..

I know a lot have happen but i dont know how much its actual affecting me and the way i think sometimes ... i so need to get a grip and think straight .. -.-

I haven't been home for a while
I'm sure everything's the same
Mom and Dad both in denial
An only child to take the blame

Sorry, Mom, but I don't miss you
Father's no name you deserve
I'm just a kid with no ambitions
Wouldn't come home for the world

Never know what I've become
The king of all that's said and done
The forgotten son

This cities buried in defeat
I walk along these no-name streets
Wave goodbye to All.....

As I fall...

At the dead-end I begin
To burn a bridge of innocence
Satisfaction guaranteed
A pillow-weight catastrophe

Our own mission nowhere bound
Inhibitions underground
A shallow grave I
Have dug all by myself

And now I've been gone for so long
I can't remember who was wrong
All innocence is long gone
I pledge allegiance to a world of disbelief
Where I belong

A walking disaster
The son of all bastards
You regret you made me
It's too late to save me
(You regret you made me
It's too late to save me)

As far as I can tell
It's just voices in my head
Am I talking to myself?
'Cause I don't know what I just said

(And she said)
As far as where I fell
Maybe I'm better off dead
Am I at the end of nowhere
Is this as good as it gets?

And now I've been gone for so long
I can't remember who was wrong
All innocence is long gone
I pledge allegiance to a world of disbelief
Where I belong

A walking disaster
The son of all bastards
You regret you made me
It's too late to save me
(To save me, to save me, to save me, ...)

("It's too late") [x2]

To save me, to save me, to save me, to save me

And now I've been gone for so long
I can't remember who was wrong
All innocence is long gone
I pledge allegiance to a world of disbelief
Where I belong

A walking disaster
The son of all bastards
You regret you made me
It's too late to save me

I will be home in a while
You don't have to say a word
I can't wait to see you smile
Wouldn't miss it for the world

I will be home in a while
You don't have to say a word
I can't wait to see you smile
Wouldn't miss it for the world

How do u live in a house every single day and see ur parents quarrel?
How do u sleep at night dreaming everytime u hear they quarrelling u fear that something tragic would happen to your mom ..
How do u go through life every single day wondering if ur mom would be alright ...
How ... how do i do this anymore .. i cant take it ..

Why must i be in such position where i have to see all this shits going on in my life .. why does other people have such normal families and have family time and outings and could be among each other's love .. when all i have everyday is just trap within my sorry plight ...

I give up living a life like this i cant take it anymore .. how i wish i could talk to someone who understands or hear me out ... for once tonight ... i look around and i actually dont got anyone to talk to ... maybe i could talk to a few people but i dont think i wanna waste their time or would they actually care about my shit ... I dont know what im gonna do tmrw .. but i told my aunt im gonna stay there and not come home anymore but i havent decide totally what to do ...

Im feeling so terrible right now i just wish i was erase from this earth ..