Ok My Favourite Lyric Based Song haha!

Avril Lavigne - Innocence

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliance, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now

And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry

This innocence is brilliance, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance, please don't go away
'Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliance, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

Alright .. I still havent got my lappie back .. oh well .. guess just have to wait .. i just wish nothings wrong with it haha .. Thats just all i gotta say bout it ...

Well lets move on with my com haha .. Thanks to my brother its fix already thanks a lot! .. thats why i could blog now and added 3 songs on my playlist! My new 3 favourite songs!! Love innocence the most due to its lyrics haha .. but i love the tune of face down so its first and it means something haha! Me and my songs right ...

And today .. i was talking to yani bout attachment and how i was feeling and all .. and i did talk to my boss finally after sitting at the chair like nearly going crazy haha! At least i know he just expects me to do my best .. and nothing more .. thats a relieve .. And we had a 5 people company meeting just now and i was like woah .. never been in a meeting room before and all haha! But hey i was amazed when it was my turn to talk and i could haha! Guess i got comfortable with everyone and it just went smoothly..

And Krystal .. we been online friends for nearly 5 yrs already .. We even talk about how we stay online friends for so long and its amazing .. and i really love you!! Haha .. U know every single thing about me and i really appreciate ur friendship and everything! Haha .. If ur reading.. Glad that ur having ur second baby =P!! Haha .. and staying with u to have a better life over at australia and all could be a dream and ur joke about maybe having my child haha! that just totally cure my day =)! Love u lots Krystal (so call mummy) haha! =)

Looking forward to 1st of may labour day! ITs a holiday and the opening of spiderman 3 and celebrating atik's belated bday haha .. Sorry atik take so long to celebrate ur bday .. dont blame me .. blame the other 2 for being so busy haha .. I booked 5 tickets online already .. for 4 of us and my mom to watch spiderman 3 haha so looking forward to it! thats all for the updates today haha!

I havent been bloggin for so long .. I have nothing fun to share with everyone actually that's why. Everything that I been facing for the past few weeks is indescribable for me to make u guys understand how I feel.

Basically I think that's what the problem is .. I don’t understand why I make such gullible decisions that literally cause my life to be more terrible as it already is. Now what's the point of saying all of this now I guess everything already happens its just the great stupid so call routine of my life which I have to go through and faced that's so called "Fucked up experience" and I only got myself to blame and learn from it and not repeat it again.

The thing I don't quite understand is .. Why helping and caring for people could hurt so much and cause a great damage impact on my own feelings. What im suppose to be selfish and self-centred to survive in this world?

I don't quite get how selfish people even sleep at night when all they care is about their EGO and not other people's feelings. I borrowed u something which u promise to return within days now its weeks. Maybe people make mistakes but ur turning it to a joke and u couldn't care less either of whats goin on. Maybe what I heard was right .. selfish people like you doesn't care cause its not ur personal belonging so what right.. U still got ur stuff at home and its someone else stuff that's not missing from ur own hands. I don't get it now I feel so naive when all of this happen. And I thought u could help with my com .. so I go all the way to ask u to help me .. cause I was desperate .. guess u didn't know how I felt. But ended up u make the matter worst.

Why the hell did all of this happen because of one person. Guess I cant blame the person but how low and selfish can the person get! Arghh .. I don't wanna be mad with the person but I don’t know how im suppose to be feeling when all this crap suddenly happen!

And attachment been really sux. I admit I cant do what I was asked to do. And its hard because I have to try but its like something I never done before or studied in school. And the so call boss (director) is like .. you suppose to be learning something new not doing the things u know if not whats the point of the attachment! But hey.. im alone .. clueless about how to do it and the stress im facing is indescribable la! Dammit I just wish I could see the light again in this darkness that’s crowding my feelings towards life.

I blogged this to let it out .. I don't need anyone to judge me or comment anything … so save it ok…

I used to be the kind of guy
Who'd never let you look inside
I'd smile when I was crying
I had nothing but a life to loose
Thought I had a lot to prove
In my life, there's no denying

Goodbye to all my yesterdays
Goodbye, so long, I'm on my way

I've had enough of cryin'
Bleedin', sweatin', dyin'
Hear me when I say
Gonna live my life everyday
I'm gonna touch the sky
And I spread these wings and fly
I ain't here to play
I'm gonna live my life everyday

Change, everybody's feeling strange
Never gonna be the same
Makes you wonder how the world keeps turning
Life, learning how to live my life
Learning how to pick my fights
Take my shots while I'm still burning

Goodbye to all those rainy nights
Goodbye, so long, I'm moving on

I've had enough of cryin'
Bleedin', sweatin', dyin'
Hear me when I say
Gonna live my life everyday
I'm gonna touch the sky
And I spread these wings and fly
I ain't here to play
I'm gonna live my life everyday
Hit the gas, take the wheel
I've just made myself a deal

There ain't nothing gonna get in my way
Everyday

Goodbye, so long, I'm moving on

I've had enough of cryin'
Bleedin', sweatin', dyin'
Hear me when I say
Gonna live my life everyday
I'm gonna touch the sky
And I spread these wings and fly
I ain't here to play
I'm gonna live my life everyday

I, oh I, oh I, I'm gonna live my life everyday
I (gonna touch the sky), oh I (spread these wings and fly), oh I
I'm gonna live my life everyday

God .. First time im dozing off in this office .. So bored to the extend of going crazy .. I dunno what to do .. I wanna go look for him but i bet he's busy like hell than he will be like anything important? I dont know how the hell to react already god dammit! Keep looking at him when he goes out of his office .. than wanting to ask him like any other days but he gave the look like he's very busy so what now .. U got no time so what am i suppose to do.. Damnnn so didnt sign up for this crap coming here to do nothing at all ... =/!

Anywayz .. Applied for internet banking yesterday .. in 4 days than can start using it .. Got a lot of things plan in my head already haha .. =)!

16th April --> Atikah's Birthday!
1st May --> Labour Day and Release of Spiderman 3!
25th May --> End of this god lame Attachment!

Dunno got what more events i havent quite get it up altogether .. but thats the only 3 i care most now haha ..

Than i went to check E-Services again just now .. and i realise attachment and fypj same la 12 credits .. chey .. i think they typo error that time put 22 HAHA! So both is 12 credits .. oh well ..

Damn sleepy ... had nasi lemak for lunch just now ....
Im so bored thats why im feeling damn sleepy i suppose ... Yawns !!
Zahid got cough and flu ... sam got cramps ... Both never go school.. Take care u guys get well rest more drink more water =P!

Alright .. about me being bored in this company! Right now im slouching on my chair .. Basically typing bloggin like no ones business .. before that was chatting and reading online true life stories haha! GO NOTHING TO DO! Well i could read codings and brush up on everything but im lazy la!! I been wanting to show him my work from last week but he was away on business trips than when he was back on thurs .. he was busy being away from office for 3 days ... So he said this week .. And i wanted to show him just now but he was busy having meetings .. Whole day having meetings i suppose .. And he said tmrw ..

God -.- Boredom ... What the hell am i suppose to do .. I dont want read the codings haha .. But i guess i will later after slacking more .. Damn boring!! Having attachment sit in office whole day is so NO LIFE LA!! i rather rot at home sia! lol =x!! On the bright side .. im geting paid 600 dollars a month for doing shit and sitting here most of the time slacking oh well not so bad =)!

For everyone out there ... fypj or attachment proj i got a thing to say =P!!
I been having troubles last time doing my project .. But hey its not so bad now .. Even when i couldnt do it.. i search online for help like sample projects or tutorials based on what u wanna search example asp net 2.0 or sql thingy or anything ... e.g oracle .. or whatever just do a search on google .. like asp.net tutorial .. or when im stuck on a particular thing .. i will do a search like data source on gridview or more specific whatsoever .. than maybe u will find something if u cant than try something else ...

Than i will read the codes ... mess around with it ... from the present state that i cant do anything than things start working ... Amazingly cool actually =P! And u kinda feel the achievement at the same time cause it works =P! haha ... alright ... im bored today .. i wanted to show my boss what i did today cause he's back already but he say he will see it next week .. so i been searching net on what i could do on my own or improve ... Bored cause i cant think of anymore .. 1 1/2 hrs more till HOLIDAY TMRW !! WOOT I CANT WAIT TO SLEEP AND ROT ALL DAY !! LOL =x alrite bye for now ..

Haha .. been playing around bah since my boss not around .. he coming back tmrw i think .. Well was surfing the net browsing playing around than i found this!!

Virgo is often associated with a drive for perfection. You are willing to spend as much time as is needed to do a job correctly, and you will naturally expect the same kind of thoroughness from those who work with you. Your willingness to refine all the significant details that others may overlook is one of the keys to your success. You are known for delivering what you promise, and you can generally be counted on to get things right the first time. People know that they can count on you, and this means that your services will be in demand for the most important projects and complicated undertakings.

The Virgo character is considered one of the more pragmatic signs in the zodiac. Certainly, a Virgo can enjoy a good time as much as anyone else. But you probably feel more comfortable when you can balance the merely recreational with that which is also practical. The less dedicated souls around you may sometimes urge you to "lighten up", but in the long run most folks appreciate your knack for getting things done without making a big fuss about it.

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My horoscope description .. I was like oooo ... haha ... but i know the downside of it .. If i cant do it .. i beat myself up cause i feel so useless .. and im not up to do the particular thing that i was asked to do.. and i will be like whining and cursing haha! And also i realise if i done something up i need assurance of someone else if the thing is alright.. Cause sometimes i dont believe that what i do is perfect enough or up to the standard of the person who ask me to do it Weird huh?!?! But other than that ... if i could do it .. I will give my all ;)! Kinda true of how the description describes everything!

Damn just got back haha ..! Had a great time =)!
My mom wanted a son and mom nights out thingy .. She wanted to hangout with me and spend time together talking and stuff .. so i was like alright anywayz i been wanting to watch Freedom Writers right .. so i was like i wanna watch a movie and she was like ok so everything goes as plan .. =)!



Haha so long i havent been doing this ticket pictures =P! Lol i love the show BECAUSE it really inspired me ... just like what the radio been saying about the movie .. Maybe cause its really based on a true story.. I love every part of it .. and how the teacher was like totally "full of wisdom" inspiring the students .. It totally meant something alrite! Movie worth watching =P! But if ur not that wisdom kind or like u cant put urself in other people's shoes when watching a movie .. i wont suggest u to watch it cause u wont get the whole inspiring feeling while watching the movie but i love every part of it alright .. =)!

God im feeling sleepy .. feel like dozing off right here on my desk haha!
Well well .. i done what he ask me to do already .. and its amazing how everything works and u feel like its magic cause all the while u couldnt do it haha =P! Anywayz my boss went to thailand from last week ... he gonna be back this thurs ..

Was helping the admin people do filing just now cause i got nothing better to do and i said i wanna help them to past my time haha! So yaa got nothing to do ... cause i need the boss to check what i've done than he will ask what to improve or change and so on.. So for the time being i dunno .. I FEEL LIKE SLEEPING or at least play game but my com is where everyone passby and so easily to be look at! Darnn -.- siann haha!

If only i can sleep with eyes open haha -.- me and my rubbish lol .. Alright la ... think gonna find something stupid or whatever to do .. im dying of boredom! =P!

This sem modules registered is very scary ..

INDUSTRIAL PLACEMENT PROGRAMME IT3775 - Core Module 12 credits (IT3775-D1 CORE62)
FINAL YEAR PROJECT IT3777 - Core Module 22 credits (IT3777-D2 CORE62)

Scary ... because getting any grade makes so much difference! Downfall or Highrise of GPA man .. Pure killer .. !!! Lol especially 22 credits Wat the hell -.-!

Linkin Park - What I've Done *New Release

In this farewell, There is no blood
There is no aliby
Cause I've drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousands lies
So let mercy come and wash away

What I've Done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
and let go of what I've done

But you asked, What you thought of me
Well, I clean this slate
With the hands, Of uncertainty
So let mercy come, And Wash away

What I've Done
I'll face myself
To cross what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

For what I've done
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I'm forgiving what I've done

I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done
(Na,Na,Na)

What I've Done
What I've Done
Forgetting what I've done

Today .. my niece first birthday ... and my bro .. open house .. he finally moved in to his own house already at punggol ... lol .. amazing how time past ..

Anywayz i didnt wanna go to my bro house cause i was lazy haha .. and tmrw also working mah .. But he force me to go .. it was funny shyt .. how he kept forcing me .. till he came down to fetch me in taxi ... and fetch my grandma's on my dad side also .. But as usual .. my dad not going ... my bro didnt even bother asking him haha .. i know how u feel bro .. whats the use .. he's an asshole anywayz ;)!

Anywayz ... the time in the cab .. with my bro and my grandma .. somethings i just didnt wanna hear about but i was there .. no choice right .. i just kept quiet .. My dad family side ... all full of problems and craps .. and they were talking about it .. in the whole 15 mins journey in the cab ... i was like -.- haizz ... maybe im being mean .. but i dont wish to know or get involve la haha ..

Anywayz my bro house looks cool ... only that the kitchen is super small this days ... So suk!! And like my aunt say .. The toilet ... in between in the rooms there .. haha .. Wanted to take some pictures but i was lazy haha! Next time i guess...

Anywayz im going to sleep ... goin to 2.30 am already .. !! lol .. alright .. byee