I dont feel so good .. this past few days ... Everything seems to be all wrong ..

=( Too many projects .. too many tests .. too many everything .. and getting sick like totally not the right time .. that sums it all up ... i think im thinking too much .. ya basically always thinking .. even think i think too much whats wrong with me .. haizz .. Stop whining .. thats life .. Damn .. Life .. we face it .. we deal with it .. why cant i just be thankful that im alive? Alive .. healthy .. somewhat happy .. normal .. not handicapped .. why am i expecting so much .. why am i wanting everything perfect .. People say life isnt perfect .. no one say life was fair .. Deal with it man! Whats up with me !! lol .. Blehh .. babbling ..

One minute .. u talk to me like all the time .. and suddenly just cause i told u .. i seem like making everything trouble for u .. and i wasnt being fair to be like troubling u with all my nonsense .. and now u come online couple of times .. and i chat with u the other time .. u didnt reply .. I seriously miss u .. alright i need u .. ur like everything im holding on to .. maybe u know that .. maybe u dont .. or maybe ur sick of telling me to stop thinking all the bad stuff .. and whining about all my problems .. and im sorry ... U said i can email u everytime .. and ur not online anymore .. I really wanna talk to u .. But i guess your sick of what i been telling u ... Im sorry man .. bleh .. im talking rubbish .. maybe if u read this ... I wish the next time u come online .. we can talk normally .. like the few days or weeks we had ..

I know u got ur own life in states and everything but guess im holding on too strong.. thats why i told u im sorry if im troubling u i suppose..

Im fine =)!